Tattoos of memories

2010-09-17T01:16:00.004+08:00

Past Few Moments...

Hi world,
Its 1.20am and i decided to blog tonight.
I realise i have not been blogging for a real long time
But i feel the need to
Life the past few months was a mixture of good and bad
But i guess is such
It cannot always be a bed of roses.
Been spending lots of timing with myself
Going to place i have never been,
Experiencing things i never did,
Having so much fun,
Learning so much other things.
Feeling sad about certain things,
Yet feeling happy..
I guess i am a chameleon.
My mood changes very very fast.
And i was in the bus today after work..
Loves long bus rides.
They never seem to make me think
Work is good cause i am always on leave
But i decided to really find an office job
So many night shifts are killing me
I hope to find a 9-5pm job though i am not cut out
I have always been bored of office job but i have not try
I really want weekends off so i can spend more time with baby and other people..
And talking about Baby,
We are in the midst of the planning our holiday
I guess no matter our busy we are,
We need to enjoy and take some time out for each other.
He's been a sweet guy
And of course i will always be a good girlfriend
The independant girlfriend who spends more time by herself
I am not complaining,
But i really enjoy my own company
And recently i went to places i miss so much,
I went to heartland mall alone,
Miss those times when i was still studying
Miss those times where we used to hangout in my house
And of course i miss those secondary school friends of mine,
And then i went back to roxy,
sadly, everyone has resigned
I kinda miss working with those bunch of people.
but what to do?
Hope to meet up soon
And mama becks has passed away
Its sad cause she always gave me money when i waas younger
But i guess everyone will die eventually
as long she is happy, i believe we will all be happy for her
And my 21st birthday will be next year,
I am in the midst of planning something
but i cannot seem to get any venue
That is the day where i really want my family,boyfriend,friends to be all by my side
I want to give a long speech to thank those people who are important.
So if you are invited,
Its because you are special to me ya...
Anyway,
I am feel nostalgia today,
Dont worry,
Its only today.
I love you guys!

2010-09-11T16:57:00.001+08:00

Happy!

CASSANDRA DIAS IS HAVING THE BLAST OF HER LIFE
WILL UPDATE MORE SOON!
LOVE YOU GUYS!

2010-07-28T10:51:00.000+08:00

The Whole New Change Thingy..

And I have not been blogging for at least 1 month?
Omg,
This 1 month has been a rollercoaster ride..
To meeting up with people that i miss,
To having a new haircut
To taking something that changed my whole life..
To making new friends
Having new perspective
I am having the blast of my life...
You will know very soon..
Till then people..
Please have a blast of your own life too!!
Who says working life is a routine?
Now you know why i never go for a 9-6 job
Take care!

2010-06-16T14:44:00.002+08:00

Life...

And i have gone more than 10 hours without sleep since night shift
I seriously cannot sleep
I'm too energetic already..
And so i was looking at the photos Rozand put on facebook.
Back then, when you look at those photos, you dont really think much of it
But now,when you look at it,
You show a different side of it..
I guess thats life..
You takes things,take people for granted,
Thinking they will always be there,
And when they leave you,
You tell yourself,
Its time to move on to the next chapter of life.
But suddennly,
You have a sudden realisation that things were actually goood back then
You just know you like that feeling of looking back..
I dont know how to explain
Probably,baby wont understand it as well,
I guess 10years down the road,
then we probably realise it..
All i can say is I'm a 80 years old trapped in a 20 years old body.
Do anyone feel me?

2010-06-14T13:04:00.013+08:00

Do You Remember?

Hi world,
I'm finally back
SOmetimes i really wonder if anyone really reads my blog,
But i guess it doesnt matter as long i express what i wanna say
Work recently has been shitty
Busy with groups and i made a few mistakes
Luckily, they understand i'm still new
But c'mon I'm still having my Roxy big hotel sydrome that i cannot seem to let go
I'm used to what the big hotels are doing but i forgot that i'm now in a smaller hotel
And the worse thing is the finance and accounts are hunting all of us like dogs
They make the problem so big with us
But seriously, they dont understand that we are only human
So remember i had 5 days leave?
My leave was supposed to be spent alone
But i rather spend it with someone than being alone
Because in the end,
I meet different people on different days doing different things.
Haha
Let the pictures do the talking...

1st day was spent with Ida,

We baked cookies and went to chevy for aunty sharon's and uncle gary wedding anniversary

We drank and danced so much

Hope to go there again.

2nd day was with my long lost classmate Hilda

We couldnt decide where to go and so we decided on Arab St and dinner at Timbre near my hotel at Old School.

Really love our conversations,music, food and of cause drink.

Hope to meet up soon again=)

Third day was spent with Mr Wong

I finally had the chance to use my free movie tickets

Didnt really wanna watch Shrek at first

But in the end,

I really enjoyed the movie with good popcorn as promised from Cathay

and afterwhich we trravelled from AMK hub to bugis and then to Taka to buy his books..

And i bought 2 good books..

I'm learning on fortune telling and body language.

I have always been interested in these topics.

So finally my dream has come true..

Hehe..

And finally it was spent with my Baby

It was our 3 years anniversary..

He was so sweet

First he gave me a pink bear and recorded a message inside it..

Secondly, he gave me this notebook..

It was full of love and he wrote our love story inside

From how we met,what we did and what did we say to each other

I cannot believe he actually remember every word i said to him

And of cause he wrote some encouraging and sweet sentences to me

I was so touched that a man like him could be so good at this as well

Haha

I baked us a chocolate cake

And i believe we enjoyed it very much

We end it off with dinner at Thai express

And sadly, i had to go work for night shift.

But we still enjoyed ourselves alot.

I pretty much enjoyed my leave for 6 days

It really had lots of surprise in stored for me

I guess life is such

So do not take any one or thing for granted ya?

I will be on night shift today

I really hope everything will be fine

Argh!

Recently,

I have been having this urge to find a good place to have a coffee and read my book

But somehow,

Time does not permit me to do so

I guess i am really taking things slow..

And I have also cut my hair

I cannot believe i finally cut

But i think i look great though

I'm now just waiting for my success to weight lost

Hehe

I am really seeing results now...

So happy..

"If you want to lose weight,

Ask me how?"

And I will be meeting Yun Ting for suntanning session this thursday after night shift

Cannot wait

Let's all find things to look forward in life so we have motivation to live ok?

Take care folks..

Let's take this time and make memories

Do you remember
All of the times we had?

Let's bring it back

2010-05-21T19:54:00.002+08:00

Boredom Kills Cassandra..

And i woke up with many plans in my head today
But somehow, the plans didnt take place except for 1 or 2
I wanted to go suntanning but was hesitating due to the weather.
I wanted to bake a brownie which i eventually did cause people in Hangout kept bugging me
The cake turned out so well that i felt happy just looking at it
Secondly, is to head to the bank to draw out money for tmr
Thirdly, to meet Ida but she was heading for her boyfriend's house to settle something
I was boreed the entire day
And i so wished i didnt had 2 off days like Roxy where time could fly faster
I headed down to my favourite Sheng Shiong for some marketing
I bought my baking items, prawns,salmon,butter....
And i had just received a sms from Baby reminding me to eat dinner
He's such a sweet boy
I love you baby
Cause he knows that i always skips my meals and get gastric
Like what he say"I will know when you shake your tail"
Haha..
Ok
I dont wanna act like i have just fell in love even though we have been together for 3 years?
Its irritating cause i know of certain people who does that without considering that there's some people out there who are still single
So we must always be thoughtful and think of how others will feel
I think i'm getting weird
But who cares
I'm really really bored!!
Kill me...

2010-05-20T09:35:00.002+08:00

Finally..

I just got home from night shift
Night shift was a quiet and peaceful night
Managed to clear all emails, print the right reports, do all bookings and still feel good
Mr Kim whom was my korean guest checked out today
He's such an emotional man
He said he cant bear to leave Hangout and wanted to give me a hug
Ever since i worked in Hangout,
All i can say is i'm so amazed that 3/4 of the guest really enjoyed their stay
I remember guests in Roxy only know how to complain
Thats why i guess, working in Hangout is much happy..
All i can say is when you stay in a hotel,
What do you look for?
Good service?
Good room?
Good price?
Good location?
People,tell me about it
Hehe..
and after work, i went to have mac breakfast alone in Parklane
I was the only one inside..
I really enjoy time on my own
And once again i fell asleep in the bus and misses my stop
I'm so angry man
I just cannot control dozing off
Haha...
And finally,
I am off today and tmr
So happy!
I cannot believe i cut bangs by myself cause i couldnt stand looking at my fringe
I am really vain man
What should i do today?
Sleep?
Oh well..
Before i think, i think i wanna sleep already
Good night world

I dont believe its true that someone like you loves me too....

2010-05-19T09:04:00.002+08:00

My Eyes Can't Seem To Close

Just came back from night shift..
And i found a new route home that is faster
But i hate taking the bus cause i kept dozing off and leaning on people's shoulder
Its so embarrassing
I kept dozing off at back office just now
But now i cannot seem to sleep
Uncle Ong is so nice,
He keep asking me to sleep and bought bubur hitam
He may be abit naggy
But he will always make me apple juice
It is nice to know that people you work with treat you like family
You feel so safe being with them and you dont have to pretend
Never felt like this before in Roxy
I guess the bigger the hotel, the heartless people are
But talking about Roxy,
Mr Wong called me ytd saying his resignation letter has been disapproved
wheregot such logic?
I told him if they want you to stay, can!
But they must offer you better if not complain to MOM
People are just so selfish..
What's the point if so unhappy working
Right or not?
Anyway, ytd i fell asleep after work
And the moment i opened my eyes,I saw baby standing infront of me
I got a shock
He really bought me my soyabean
The best part was when i slept, my laptop and phone still on the bed,
So he removed them and slept with me cause we are both victims of night shift
Hehe
Night shifts are really graveyard shifts, very tiring
Ytd, i learn something from my relationship
I have been too selfish thinking that money spoils the relationship.
But i told baby that i needed to borrow money
He open mouth and asked" How much you need?"
I straight away told him"$100 can?"
He never ask me the reason and told me he will give me the money
I dont know what will happen if its in other people's relationship
but i do know money is a sensitive issue
Thats what broke my parents up
And i'm really cruel to think that all man are selfish
But baby is a good example that he is not.
I think i am mad but sometimes i feel worried when people care and love me so much
Cause i dont know whether i can have the capability of doing the same to them
But i know i'm blessed since secondary school days
Everyone been trying to make me happy, and of cause my family as well..
I dont blame mum and dad cause i believe they did their best to give me all they can
And yet the selfish thought is i took everything for granted
I feel like a selfish ass
I mean dont you guys have days where you just want people to stop bothering you so they can mind their own business?
but i do experience this all the time..
And all i wanna say is" thank you for everything guys"
And baby, i know you are the one who will go thru thick and thin with me..
Its not any tom,dick or harry..
Its not someone who love you just for sex,
Its not someone who love you when you know how to party,
Its not someone who love you when they feel like it,
Its someone who love even when you feel you are not worthy to be loved,
Its someone who tells you that you are beautiful in his eyes even if you know you are ugly,
Its someone who tells you the food you cooked is the best in the world even though you know its not true..
Baby, thank you for loving the irritating,selfish Cassandra even in times of difficculty
And i really hope we will last forever
Even though the time we spent is not as much as other couple,
But i dare to say that our relationship is stronger than any other couple.
My food for thought today is to tell the people that you have been neglecting due to whatever reasons that you love them, and you need them in your life.
Yes,Cassandra Dias is emo again..
But thats her baby...

2010-05-17T12:45:00.001+08:00

A Different Light Everytime..

Hey world..
How are you guys?
Hope you guys are doing fine..
Work has been fine with many of my guests.
I really enjoy striking a conversation with everyone of them
I'm finally confirmed and got my Cathay staffpass for free movie tixs.
So if you guys wanna watch freelist movies,
let me know ya?
I just talked to Sufiyan regarding my next stop to Herbalife
And so i will be meeting him on Saturday
yay
I seriously cannot wait to take the first step
good luck to me..
If its really good,
I will introduce to you guys
I'm really such a vainpot
But thank god herbalife product is not expensive
Anyway,
Life has been interesting as well.
I enjoyed my phone conversation with Baby last night
we have not meet up for 2 weeks man
We are both night shift tonight
So we have company=)
I miss him..
He will come over after his night shift tmr
And he say he maybe will buy KFC eggtarts for me plus soyabean
It's tiring but no choice
I still dont know what to get him for our 3 years anniversary!
But definitely enough of clothes!
Let's all jia you!
And i was telling him that....
"I was walking home from work one day and was waiting for the lift as per normal"
And then the door opened,
And i saw a retarded boy with his parents and maid slowly helping him to walk
He managed to walk out but his shoes came out"
And at that point of time,
I was so touched and wanted to cry
I told myself" Why do i love complaining?"
I can walk and talk like a normal person not like this poor boy
He cannot even walk properly.
Why cant i be contented ?
He doesnt even complaint about his situation
What right do i have to complain and be unhappy?
I went home and straight away reflect
I know i'm weird
But i really love reflecting
I believe this is one of God's signs
This is to remiind me to be contented with what i have
Cause anytime he can take all that away from me
I will go back to church real soon
Anyway,
This is just a reminded that we must be happy all the time?
Anyway, i got to go study my malay language already
This is to kill my boredom..
Have fun guys!

XoXo,
Sandra

2010-05-12T21:00:00.001+08:00

Eenie Meenie..

I'm finally back...
Actually i only blog when i get serious enlightments..
So its kinda bad thing but also a good thing.
Life has been fun..
Work has been a real slack with those wonderful people..
We just had an Hangout bbq and its really nice to see everyone enjoying.
I hope things at work will stay this way..
Apart from work,
I admit i'm losing my social life as well.
Or should i say thats because i have toned down
And all my friends are only bothered about partying..
Partying for me have past the stage
There's other more fun than that..
Perhaps this is because I have a boyfriend.
I respect him and i really want this relationship to last.
I see many people breaking up recently..
And i do find it a pity..
People break up over the slightest issue but never thought of why they fell in love in the first place..
Just like my mummy and daddy..
Right to this stage,
I do find it a pity..
However, i understand pityness isnt the same as love.
Baby and I have been busy with our work recently...
I dont blame him cause sometimes i do enjoy being without him and vices versa..
Hehe
But i still cannot believe that our 3 years anniversary is just next month
I still remember our initial agreement was just 3 months probation,
And even though we had some ups and downs initially,
But we managed to make it through..
Even though he's a little irritating or boring sometimes..
Hahahaha..
But i am sure, i wont be the same person I am today..
I love you honeypie...
And apart from my love life,
I have been meeting up with Jorinda
She's still the same,
But sometiimes its good to just be the same old you.
Its sad to know that my relationship with my secondary mates are coming to an end
Thats why this is called phrases in life..
And i have been missing my Roxy ex colleagues so much
Been meeting up with Mr Wong..
Love our constant conversation...
And i'm inviting him and Ida over tmr for laksa..
I cannot wait to see them once more..
Let the history of Roxy continue...
Haha..
But i do miss working there too..
I feel happy at the current moments..
even though things might go wrong at certain point of time in life,
But i tell myself I must be happier than anyone else..
And i hope you guys will be happy as well!

XOXO,
Sandra

2010-04-24T11:26:00.003+08:00

Life Oh Life

And finally I got the time to blog
Its been zillion years since i last blog
No time plus lazy to blog
I've been in a lazy mood recently
Anyway..
Life is still the same
Work is still alright just that its more busy due to the volcanic situation
But thank God not in Roxy anymore
If not Roxy surely flight delay
And I have been confirmed i believe
Hehehe
OMG,
I really feel i need to travel to somewhere
I have so many people waiting for me to date out
My dearest Hilda for our Timbre at Mt Sophia,
My dearest Steffanie for our steamboat buffet
My dearest Jasmine for our seoul garden at JB
But i really hope i got the time for all these
I am sure i will have the time
Mummy's birthday coming soon,
What should i get her man
And i saw Joanne Peh ytd at Wild Rocket
She was without make up
Wanted to take picture with her but counter was busy with check in
Haha
Tall la but not really pretty
Sian..
Ok la..
Baby's going over later..
Got to go
Have a good weekend folks!

.

2010-04-06T16:18:00.002+08:00

My Sentiments..

Hey world..
I'm back again!
Life has been great,
And work has been interesting still no doubt
I'm still here pondering whether i should eat or not?
Eating is simple when there are ingredients at home to cook,
Or when there is a coffeeshop downstairs..
But this happens to be none
I am such a lazy ass to go down and buy food
Its so frustrating sometimes
Argh,,
And eating alone doesnt help to solve the issue either
I feel kinda fed up
But this is life
Baby's 21st birthday was a blast!
Initially i felt afraid cause i dont know many people..
But c'mon,
I'm a hotelier,
What's with being scared to socialise and stuff?
So in the end,
I made friends with his friends
Hehe
His friends are somewhat similar to my friends
So i thank God
One of them reminded me of Hilda
Hehe
But overall buffet was excellant,
But my poor baby told me before bed that he didnt managed to eat
Stayover at his house was another wonderful night.
Unfortunately, i was morning shift the next day,
He woke me up for work and send me down to get me a taxi..
He's such a sweet boy!
And Happy 2 years 10 months baby!
I love you
Time really flies but nevertheless,
We must continue to love each other=)
Anyway,
I feel rather disappointed with the class gathering thingy
But i decided that i'm never gonna plan anymore.
If no one cares, that i shant too.
I guess bangkok trip will be cancelled too
Mr Wong says he doesnt have the mood to go..
I understand his stress and perhaps i will plan my own trip
I plan to do another of my singapore tour
I will book a hotel room and then experience my next round of being a tourist
Yay!
I will slowly slowly plan
Perhaps Palau Ubin and Kusu Island will be one of the itenery!
I am so excited=)
And i'm on night shift tonight with Lee Lee,
Its gonna be so much fun man!
Hope tonight will be a good good night!

2010-03-24T19:36:00.002+08:00

If Seeing is believing,its worth the wait..

And i'm back again
Tonight is my 3rd night
1 more to go baby!
So funny,
When i went to work last night,
I saw there was a message in HIS waiting for me
It seemed my FOM was nice to message me apologising for giving me tons of night shift
In my heart,
I was thinking" you are my fom,i'm your staff"
Whatever shift you give me, i have to accept what
If only Mr Tay was like that in roxy,
That would be a day where pigs could fly
Or perhaps i wouldnt leave Roxy
Today I was supposed to send Ricardo to airport
However, my gastric was killing me since morning
I couldnt walk
Soon, i will suffer from stomach cancer
Hehe..
Whatever la..
Its sad,
Cause its like another person leaving me again
Friendship or should i say colleagueship built with the pinoys are truely amazing
I dont know why life is such
Its like every moment,
Someone is leaving me, and then i'm meeting someone new
Is life suppose to be like this?
Everytime when you are about to treasure that person,
It is already too late..
I guess that's part and parcel of life,
I guess life is still amazing at this current moment for me
I had a sudden urge to write baby a letter the past few days
Even though, sometimes i dont feel like talking to him.
But i feel perhaps it is good to let him know how i feel
He's busy and so am i
Hopefully, we can spend more time together this weekend when i'm off
I miss you baby
I hope you are doing fine
I pray work will be good as usual tonight!
Let's all jia you together ok?
Muacks

You love me for who i am,
Like how the stars hold the moon
Like where they belong,
I know i'm not alone
And when my world is falling apart
and when there is no lights to break up the dark,
Thats when i look at you

2010-03-23T17:34:00.004+08:00

Baby Baby Baby

I'm back world
My life has been packed filled with activities,
From photography competition, to bbq,meet ups here and there
Work has been all right too
Mistakes here and there,
But you cant blame me,
I 'm still learning=)
And still on night shift once more
4 nights man!
Hehe
I'm super angry right now cause i'm super hungry..
My gastric hurts like hell
I guess i will soon suffer from stomach cancer
I mean seriously
My stomach is suffering 3 different pains right now
Can someone who is sweet enough buy lunch or dinner for me
I guess i gotta stop wishing and dreaming
Because there is no that someone
Dont you wish there's a neighbour who stay around you that you can trust
But no one knows
Been cooking alot recently
Cooking helps me destress and i feel happy
So invited SyJye,Karen and Ric up for dinner last night
I wish they could have stayed longer
But i guess they were all tired
And i had to report to night shift
I'm hungry,
but must i really go down and get it by myself?
I'm such a lazy ass..
Oh well,
Please have a good evening folks!

Ohh wooaah Ohh wooaah Ohh wooaah
You know you love me,
I know you care
Just shout whenever,
And I'll be there
You are my love,
You are my heart
And we will never ever-ever be apart
And I was like Baby,
baby, baby oohh Like baby,
baby, baby noo Like baby, baby,
baby ooh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

2010-03-02T09:15:00.002+08:00

Dear Cassandra,

Hello everyone!
Its been a long time huh
life has been great
Work has been fun, and good
Still loving my job
Went night safari alone the other day with 2 New Zealanders
They were hot but i know they were gays
But night safari was kinda boring perhaps because of the fact that i was alone
And watched movie with Ms Tan last night
Valentine's day movie has reallly make me realise many things about love,
But i will keep this to myself as i guess no one will understand my theory
The plot is nice,
Actress and actors were hot
Ok,
What i really wanna say about this is "why do we always love a person that dont really love us"
Yet, the one that we should love and really love us is the ones we never thought we could love
And there were actually by our side all along
Yet, we always want to challenge ourself
As i watched this movie,
I searched my heart to what i really want,
And i found out its a different case i got.
And now i got some issues with my heart.
I'm sorry to myself,
Because i have been hiding my stupid feeling
And i know all along somehow,
You and i are not meant to be anymore.
Its contradicting but that is how i really feel
and my next show to watch is "dear john"
I have been a weird lady recently,
I feel like doing things alone,
Going places alone
Eating alone
And even traveling alone
Only when i'm alone, i get new perspective on life
And i love this kind of thing
Being alone is not pathetic,
Its just that as i grow older and busier,
I really cannot get someone suitable to do things with me
Not even my boyfriend
Sorry baby,
But we are too different!
And the one that's common with me is busy with their life working away
And you are busy too
But i tell myself busy is not an execuse
So i learn to do things on my own.
Cathay Orientation ytd was so much fun
Met new people again
I really love meeting new people
And i believe i will stay long with the Cathay family
So i can continue getting free movie tickets!!!
Haha
I'm on afternoon shift today,
I pray that it will be a good good day=)

I think about the little things that make life great,
I wont change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
Cause innonence is brillant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please dont go away
I need you now
I will hold on to it.

2010-02-17T20:50:00.002+08:00

Gong Xi Fa Cai....

Gong Xi Fa Cai
Happy Chinese New Year folks..
Chinese new year was excellent
Ate lots of good food,titbits and of cause gambled
Got alot of angbao
Especially from future "parents-in law" if it will come true
They gave me 100 once again
But didnt have the chance to bai nian with them
This baby tricked me into going his house
When i wear until so nice and so scared,
All i see was him when he opened the door
But its good
At least, we had some time alone before heading down to Ah Mu house
Thats where we exchanged our belated valentine's day presents
we gambled alot
Played cards and shared mahjong
I guess baby's luck is better than me
But most important is we had fun=)
Work has been good
Just that i have far more than what i had expected to learn
But everyday is just a experience
we lo hei today
And i see the warmth of being part of the family
The Gm, Sales, Cleaners,Hsekeeper,accounts all joined in
Its like this is the environment i really dreamed of all my life
And i hope it will stay this way forever and ever
Life will be better i believe
Met up with Jasmine ytd for our seoul garden feast at tampiness
Thank you for always coming to my area
I'm happy that you have found your long lost happiness
Always remember that happiness have to be treasured and grabbed
If not it will fly away..
Jia You
And of cause i will be here if you need me
And seriously,
No matter how small the things that make life great,
This is the only way i am contented and happy
Happiness to me is something so simple to feel
But yet we keep looking at the things that we cannot get
Why cannot we look at the things that we already have and be contented?
And i'm truely happy at this minute,moment,hour,day,second
Are you?

Baby and i had the best conversation via sms..

Me:Darling, what do you like about me?
Baby:Why ask lea
Me: Faster say
Baby:Just love you as Cassandra. "The save money,guai guai sandra!
Me: I very guai meh? I got save money meh?
Baby: Why ask this? I just love you for who you are
Baby: So now,what do you like about me?
Me: I love your patience,forgiveness,understandingness, loving,helpful,romantic,thrifty,smart
shyness. Everything about you!

In my heart, i was thinking these characteristic about you are attributes that i hope i could be

The best thing about my life is knowing somewhere, somehow in some part of the world, someone thinks of me,cares about me and loves me.

2010-02-09T22:23:00.002+08:00

Hey World, I Can Do It!!

And i'm back again,
Life has been good to me,
It was my birthday on the 7th
Went out with Sweetheart on the 6th for dinner
He bought me my favourite korean drama dvd
And of cause treated me to pizzahut
The only thing that went wrong was my new shoe and bag broke on the same day
And stupid baby was laughing at me
He almost didnt let me buy slipper
Cause my new shoe was 3 inch high
Of cause i cannot walk
So i bought a slipper
And we walked home from bedok interchange
And i was working on the actual day of my birthday,
My new colleagues was pretty much nice to wish me
They are really hospitable
The funny thing is those that i always expect to wish me never seem to do so
And those who wishes me are those i least expected
I felt stupid sleeping my birthday away
It was just another day anyway in my eyes
And i took 48 home today which stopped outside GMRH
A sudden burst of emotions rushed thru me when i saw the building
I miss so many things and certain people
And tmr i will be going solo
Baby have faith in me,
But i dont have faith in myself
At least last time in gmrh,
Even though departure was alot,
But it was shared among us
And sometimes two of us will even check the guest out together
I wonder how is everyone doing
I miss certain people
Of cause the one whom i always spend time with
But will they ever understand this feeling?
Or they have removed me out of their memory and life?
OMG,
I'm getting emo
But i'm always like that
Turning digit 2 is a red light that its time to be mature
And this year i hope to save more money
To study and to go for holiday
I believe in life,
we can do anything we want,
Its only a matter of how
I miss being a kid
Hehehehe
I miss you guys so much
Let's do meet up soon

Time really flies,
We have our own way of leading live,
People get in and out of our life,
But the best only leave footprints behind,
Did i left some in your life?

2010-02-04T22:44:00.003+08:00

The World Is Round..

The world is so round,
It consists of 24 hours
But somehow,
Everyone seemed so busy,
I feel like a little fish in the ocean
That no one seem to care about my existance
But its ok,
I only hate the fact that the replies i get are so short
And i have this feeling that i'm given the cold shoulder,
Call me paranoid or whatever,
I always trust my gut feeling
If you dont want to have any contact with me anymore,
Just tell it to my face
But dont treat me like i'm so unimportant
I hate that feeling
Like i have to guess what you are thinking even if you have nothing
You can always tell me the truth
But please dont hurt me by treating me so small
You know who you are.
First thing first,
I have been without sleep for 24hours since night shift.
Went to market with Popo
Then at night went to Tampiness 1 with Sean to get something
We had a funny conversation which kept me thinking
Haha
Anyway,
Family is always first
Night shift was fantastic
Darni is sill nice and sweet
And i'm still learning
I need faith and i know i can do it
Baby baby,
I miss you so so much
2 days is like 2000days
Its UNBEARABLE
Cannot wait to see what you got me
And i'm turning 20 in 2 days
OMG
I think time really flies
Still remember studying so hard for O's
And now i'm already working
And separated from them for 2 years?
We are all leading our own life
And i was busy handling my life in Roxy and having a boyfriend
And soon its also my 2years 8 months annivesary
Baby,
I cant believe we have come this far..
And without you,
I wouldnt come this far
I love you so blardee much
Smile
I miss everyone
Seriously,
Life is getting more hectic as i expected
Jia you people!
We will meet up soon
I promise

The sun will shine like never before
By then i will be ready to go,
See the world behind my wall
I'm ready to fall,
I'm ready to crawl,
I'm ready to kill
They are telling me its beautiful
I believe them but will i ever know the world behind my wall...

2010-02-01T13:08:00.002+08:00

Life Is A Journey...

And i'm back again
Life has been interesting and eye-opening at the moment
Work has been good
Being who i really am at work is something i cannot get elsewhere
I seriously dont have to pretend
I meet people with more interesting personailites,
Something more similar to me
Especially Darni,
She's the girl i'm attached with for work
She's really nice and helpful
Most importantly,
I need someone who's positive-)
And so as i'm caught up with studying my maps,
And learning more about hangout,
Baby is also busy studying for his army exams
And we didnt had much time to talk
But i love this kind of relationship
Like as long we know we have each other's support
we will have the extra drive and motivation to work hard towards our goals
And i had a dream last night
I dreamt of secondary school
After school,
We straight away ran out and went to my house's coffeeshop
I miss you guys man
Ytd,
I went for lunch with mummy
And received a surprise massage from Xiu Wen
That kind of feeliing was so nice
Its like after so long,
She still think of me
Hope to meet up soon
Hope everyone is doing fine right now
Most importantly happy=)
I feel life is like a transition
We go thru different stages of our life
And fate permits us to meet with different people,
Some good, Some bad
Some stay, some go,
Some make a difference in our life,
Some create a impression
And for me,
For those who know me,
I hope i managed to do both
And i cannot believe i'm reaching the digit 2-0 in 6 days time
OMG,
I dont wanna be digit 2
I feel so old
Ok la,
Perhaps mature
but no matter what,
I still thank god for blessing me for the past 19 years of my night
Anyway,
I cant wait for CNY and my birthday
Though its just another day
But i'm still excited
Today is daddy's birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY
I WISH YOU GOOD HEALTH AND HAPPINESS
THANK YOU FOR YOUR LOVE
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU...
May 2010 be a good year for all of us ok?
I miss you guys..

2010-01-29T09:36:00.002+08:00

I Wont Go Away ...

And i'm back
Work has been good
People has been trying to make me feel welcome
Had a good time with Alice,Ricardo and Sy Jye last night
Sorry to be late but i appreciate your patience
So i saw that building again
Haha
And we had macdonalds cause i was super hungry
And after that we went to pasar malam at Bedok
And then we went our separate ways
Of cause me and Syjye walked the same way
And i was telling him how amazing my new job is at the current moment
And of cause he was telling me the same old story about Mercure
And i was giving him tons of reason since he was so unhappy,why cant he just quit
I mean seriously right
I'm sure i can stay in mercure or move on to bigger hotels with my standards,
But why do i move to a smaller hotel?
Answer is simple,
I want to be happy
And really enjoy the feeling of working in a tourism industry
Just like Taufik my FOM mentioned
He used to work in Shangri'la receiving big VIPs
But he hated the way he had to act just to make sure service is tip top
I do feel him
Everyone got different way of viewing happiness
Like some bimbos,
They wanna be thin and lead their superficial lifestyle,
This is in relation to Fairli's post that i was reading
I mean being fat is not a crime
We can still be happy even if we are fat
I truely agree
It is only how we see things
And Mr Sy Jye feels happy as long he got money
Money makes his world go round
And for me,
As long the people around me are happy
I am happy
Love makes my world go round
Money will always be secondary to me
Because money can slowly be earned once lost
I see how money destroyed my parents relationship
So i do not want the same thing to happen to me
But at the moment,
I am really enjoying my work,my love life and every other thing
I have people who truely care for me
I dont have to act or pretend infront of them
They just love me for who i am
Just like baby
hehe
I hope he gives me a surprise on my birthday
As he says i always spoil the surprise
Haha
But i will be working on that day
So like half a day will be gone
But oh well
We will see how it goes
Anyway as i'm enjoying life in the simpliest way it can be,
I do hope you guys are having a good time as well
do not give up to those who are struggling ok?
Believe that God will make all things beautiful in his time=)

2010-01-26T20:21:00.002+08:00

And I'm back again
Cause i have been enjoying at home
Eating eating and eating
OMG,
I feel like a pig
The problem is i have nothing to do but eat
Baby..i know you still love me no matter how fat i look
Cause in your eyes,
I'm cute
Hehe
I miss you
And so tmr gotta return to work already
I'll be working with FOM tmr
I seriously got to show my best
Hopefully it wont be so akward tmr
You can do it Cassandra Dias!!
Hehe
Mr Phua,please call me soon
Thank you for your coperation.
Anyway..
Kindly take good care of yourselves people
Muacks

No matter how hard its gonna be,
No matter how long its gonna take
I mustn give up

2010-01-26T00:45:00.003+08:00

Contentment

Oh..

Isnt this picture cute

This is me

I laugh everytime i see this picture

Its cupid Sandra

Haha

I seriously love this picture.

Anyway

Back to topic

Its been 4 days since i start my new place

I see people with passion,

People who are patient,helpful,non-calculative

Most importantly,

they are always with a smile

You wont know the power of a smile

When i make mistakes,

They dont scold me

And even ask me to relax

Right now,

I am enjoying my 2 days off

Yippee!

Life is great at the moment

The best part is FOM even ask me personally if i need to take CNY leave,

Its so nice right

If GMRH,

Surely have to draw lots

And blah blah blah

But i do feel a little lonely there

Cause i dont know the people yet

And memories of me and GMRH colleagues will suddenly appear in my head

Memories of me and them laughing at the counter

I do miss them

But i believe we got to move on

And i decided to forgo Marina Bay Sands interview

I think i will be happy to stay at where i am

It might be a small organisation

But contentment is all i need to stay happy=)

So baby and I had alot of fun on Saturday

But we wont reveal what it is

Baby,its our little secret

And then he brought me to eat Manhatten Market

The salmon was so fresh

But its like another Fish N Co

And i totally forget that my 20th birthday is coming soon

Its in 1 weeks time i gather

So excited

I dont know how am i gonna spend it

Probably just go work and then buy a little cake

I dont know

But let's see how it goes

Anyway,

I'm feeling a little sleepy

Guess i better turn in now

Good night world!

Sometimes even if i'm deceiving myself,

Sometimes if i believe in hopes and possiblities,

At least, it makes me happy

2010-01-19T13:56:00.003+08:00

And I Think Of You...

Hey world
Cassandra is back once more.
Ok...
So its coming to day 5 since i left roxy
Nevertheless,
I still have this habit to wake up and get ready for work
And sometimes,
Wondering what shift i am on
And what shift Alice and Sy Jye is on,
And having the habit to meet syjye at the bus stop for work
Not forgetting, the kind of mood we carry to work
Those complaints,frustrations
But i know now i no longer have this chance to experience anymore
I wonder how is the people there
I wonder how is Mr Wong??
Is he dyiing there alone with irritants?
Those backstabbers,bootlicker,hypocrites and etc..
I miss you best friend
Hope we can meet up soon if you are reading
But i guess you must be busy
Nevertheless,
Please dont skip meals
Take care
And stayover at darling's place was rathering boring yet fun
Baby bought kfc for me for dinner
We ate and then watch tv
That sillyboy was so sleepy
So he slept at 10pm straight
And i was feeling pretty bored by then
The next day,
We went to party world for some singing session
It was pretty amazing to see him sing
And i was amazing by how nice that place was
Darling ordered mango milktea for me
Cause he knew i like mango too..
And omg,it was simply delicious=)
I love the fact that someone knows i love mango drinks too
We sang our heart out for 3 hours
And then we had thai express for dinner
And went shopping together
He bought an everlast shoe and i bought converse for my new job
And after which I went home
and so ytd,
I went out alone all by myself
It was kinda nice feeling walk around enjoying the breeze
I decided to find out the location of my new hotel
So i wrote down a list of destinations in s'pore that i'm gonna tour
I held a map in my hand and sling the camera on my neck
But i believe the world might really believe i''m one
My first stop was Little India
As my new place is around there
Took me 1/2 an hour to search and i finally found it
Walk around and took beautiful pictures
And settled down for chicken bryani at Sakunthalas restaurant
I felt funny cause most of them were indians there
But it was yummy
I had mango lassi
Mango again!
Lassi means yoghurt
And i enjoyed a peaceful meal there that cost me 11 bucks with good service=)
Carried on to Tekka market to buy bangles
I love it
2nd stop was douby ghaut,
hoping to go fort canning park and war memorial
But it was raining
So walked around bought a purple dress
and then took the train down to clark quay
I love the breeze as i took the Hippo River Cruise
It was so cooling as i admire the s'pore river
And the merlion
There were a total of 11 of us in the boat
But i totally enjoyed myself
Listened to what the tour guide was explaining about the history of the river
And it was really interesting and eye opening
After which i went to visit Godma
since weather was unsuitable to go chinese gardens and haw par villa
Had a good long chat with her
And mama pat really looked sick
Hope she gets well soon
After which took train down to Buona Vista
And taxi to Holland Village to meet Hillary
This is the 1st time going there
And i finally get to see the windmill
I ordered my favourite stingray and many others
Had sinful ice-cream
Yummy!
Had a short time with her but enjoyed her company.
What's life without a great company and great food man
And i'm starting my new job in 2 days time
OMG
I cannot imagine having to start all over again,
Meeting new friends,
That fear will always be there
But i wont be scared cause i know there's people behind me
I thhink life's so amazing
And i pray for better days ahead
Good luck Cassandra
Jia You

2010-01-17T22:21:00.001+08:00

2 Is Better Than One

I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my lifeAnd i thought hey
You know this could be something'cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now i'm left with nothing
So maybe it's true, that i can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And i'm thinking two, is better than one
I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing'cause when i close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, believing
And maybe it's true, that i can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And i'm thinking two, is better than one
Yeah, yeah
I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And i thought hey
Maybe it's true, that i can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And i'm thinking
Oooh i can't live without you'cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And i've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one
Two is better than one.

2010-01-17T22:06:00.002+08:00

Meet Me Halfway

Ooh, I can't go any further than this

Ooh, I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

Cool, I spend my time just thinkin', thinkin', thinkin' 'bout you

Every single day,

yes I'm really missin', missin' you

And all those things we used to, used to, used to do

Hey boy, what's up?

It used to, used to be just me and you

I spend my time just thinkin', thinkin', thinkin' 'bout you

Every single day, yes I'm really missin', missin' you

And all those things we used to, used to, used to do

Hey boy, what's up? Yo?

What's up? What's up? What's up?

Can you meet me halfway, right at the borderline?

That's where I'm gonna wait for youI'll be lookin' out night and day

Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I stay

Ooh, ooh, I can't go any further than this

Ooh, ooh, I want you so bad, it's my only wish

Boyl, I travel 'round the world and even sail the seven seas

Across the universe, I go to other galaxies

Just tell me where to go, just tell me where you wanna meet

I navigate myself, myself to take me where you be'

Cause boy I want, I, I, I want you right nowI travel uptown, town,

I travel downtownWanna to have you around, 'round like every single day

I love you alway-way,

I'll meet you halfway

Can you meet me halfway, right at the borderline?

That's where I'm gonna wait for youI'll be lookin' out night and day

Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I stay

Ooh, ooh, I can't go any further than this

Ooh, ooh, I want you so bad, it's my only wish

Ooh, ooh, I can't go any further than this

Ooh, ooh, I want you so bad, it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge to the other side, just you and I

(Just you and I)I will fly, fly the skies for you and I

(For you and I)I will try until I die for you and

IFor you and I, for, for, for you and IFor, for, for you and I, for, for you and

I(For you and I)

Can you meet me halfway?

Meet me halfway, right at the borderline

That's where I'm gonna wait for you

I'll be lookin' out night and day

Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I stay

Ooh, ooh, I can't go any further than thisOoh,

ooh, I want you so bad, it's my only wish

Ooh, ooh, I can't go any further than this

Ooh, ooh, I want you so bad, it's my only wish

2010-01-15T13:54:00.002+08:00

OMG..

And mum just told me that marina bay sands resort is asking me for a interview,
But i remember sending my resume months ago
And now that I got a new job,
They called me.
Like what the hell right?
Its a once in a lifetime opportunity i know
But can you imagine the stress?
You think i can do it?
Mummy doesnt want me to go,
But I think i dont wanna any regrets
But i heard they only select the best
And its not even easy to go in for an interview
I think i'm lucky already=)
So i decided to take a risk=)
And farewell ytd was excellent
They bought me a card with their wishes
And surprised me with a cake
They are so nice=)
I felt so touched
Grand Mercure Roxy Hotel is a stepping stone to my career
I learned things from the hard way
But the whoever survived is the fittest
Though i hated the way i was trained
But i believe without it,
I wont be the person I am today
I guess this is working world
Thank you every single one of you.
Especially Mr Tay for even giving me this chance to work in this hotel
To everyone who have given me support
Be it in good times or bad times,
Thank you once again
To Alice & Jacck:Continue to grow old together and all the best!
To Mr Wong: Thank you 1000x times.For your unconditional love and concern,I know how you feel. And i want you to know i will be here if you need me.Thank you for everything!
And all i gotta do is pray marina bay sands wont want to hire me,
If not i'm caught between my new job and marina bay sands
God,you are too nice to me,
You give me 2 good man in my life to choose,
But luckily i know..
And now please dont make me choose between my job
Let what is mine be mine
What is not mine is not mine
I guess thats how i'm gonna think.
Life will be better and happier
That whats i wanna think
Gonna meet sweetheart later
Gonna stay overnight at his house
This is my first time after so long
May i enjoyed myself
Take care folks.

Maybe its true, that i cant live without you,
Maybe two is better than one,
But there's so much time to figure out whats best in my life
And i have figured out with all that's said and done
That two is better than one

2010-01-12T10:45:00.003+08:00

But There Is Something Left In My Head....

And I'm back on a nice tuesday
Its my OIL today
Work for 2 more days
And my fate with Grand Mercure Roxy will be sealed
I will always keep those good memories in my heart,
And learn from those bad memories
I am grateful for roxy for giving me so many opportunites to outshine myself
And I'm proud of myself today=)
But i'm really looking forward to my new job,
I pray hard this is the environment i really dream for,
The place i wanna work all my life
Oh well
We will see about that
Was supposed to meet Ricaardo and Syjye for supper after their work
But when he called,
It was already 12.50am
And i was dozing off already
So Mr Wong said it was alright.
And baby massaged me just now
I cannot wait for my 1st sleepover at his house this friday
I hope to cook dinner there
But baby says we will just order in or go out for dinner
Cannot wait
I miss you darling.
And you know what
I managed to cook mango sticky rice for the 1st time
and i succeeded
I'm so happy=)
I bought little colourful flakes for my cookies
Will be baking cookies on my last day for them
Been thinking.
I think i prefer to give than to receive
Haha..
Love is all about sharing=)
I believe i made a difference in certain people's life
Since secondary school,
I have always been that silly little girl
But then you will ask
"but people never buy anything for you,buy for them for what"
But i dont know why leh
When i see them smile after doing something for them
It makes everything worth it
Why must we be so calculative
Anyway..
I'm happy and peaceful now
Will be going jalan jalan with popo
She wants to buy a pair of shoes
I'm so hungry
Take care folks,
Gonna grab a bite
Love you guys=)

If i had to lead my life without you near me,
The days would all be empty,
The nights would seem so long
Hold me now,
Touch me now
I dont wanna live without you..
Nothing gonna change my lovefor you
You ought to know by now how much I love you=)

2010-01-09T00:00:00.002+08:00

I Dont Wanna Live Without You...

And its 12am in the morning
I have to wake up for work in less than 6 hours
But i cannot sleep
Work today was like crap
140 rooms of flight delay
This hotel is just so so screwed up
But no matter how bad it is,
Mr Wong and I made it thru
I wonder how tomorrow gonna be
I really have no more mood to work anymore
It is such a drag as i am counting down the days
And so i decided to sign up for 1 day tour in S'pore during my leave
I just gotta learn how to enjoy life
Life is just so fast for me at the moment
I need to slow down
Baby's out of camp I know
Have not heard from him for 1 whole day
I wonder how is he
Bet he must be having a good night's sleep
Met up with Fairli ytd at gardens was good
But then her boyfriend came after that and i went home
I enjoyed myself
Suddenly i feel my life is so meaningless
I dont know why
Perhaps its stress at work
Or maybe I need some lovin
Haha
Whatever it is,
I would like to rest and recharge my battery before my new job starts
Day out with Mr Wong today was good even though it was less than 4 hours
He accompanied me for jalan jalan
And i'm still thinking about what he said at Cotton's On
Perhaps he's right
But love has no wrong and no right
Anyway we enjoyed ourself over a good meal and laughter
Mr Wong,
I support you in being a general cashier
Get out of front desk man!!
They are just blind people who go for some bootlicking
Jia you
Thinking of work tmr make me sians
The people,the hotel,the guests..
I totally need a break,need a kitkat
Do you guys as well?

Cmon and lead me on
Cmon and tease me all night long,
Loving you,I know its right
I'll always need you,
I'll never leave you

2010-01-05T01:17:00.002+08:00

A Mixture Of Emotions

Hi people
This is my 1st post of year 2010
And I'm glad i'm feeling happy
Work is tiringg with long queues,
Yes fed up no doubt,
But where i work,
I suddenly feel happy
I was so happy to see syjye,ricardo,cindy and many more...
That kind of feeling i never had for the past 1 year
Its like suddenly everyone is on the same boat
I guess humans always feel like that
Like when they are able to lose something,
Then they start to treasure
But i will miss them
And met up with honey on saturday after work
I slept and slept
And he was so sweet,
He bought me a heart-shaped necklace
I feel like a princess when he wore it for me on my neck
I feel so happy
And i guess he must have felt happy seeing me happy as well
He's such a sweet lil boy
I love you baby so much
And thanks for sharing the KFC meal with me
Haha
Cannot wait for our next meet up
And now baby loves cotton on
I love cotton on too
He says we can go cotton on shopping together next time
and i'm still waiting for that day to come soon=)
Its 1.30am in the morning right now
And i cannot seem to sleep
I really cross fingerss and pray that 2010 will be a good year
And i would love my new found job=)
Hello Mt Emily Hangout Place
Goodbye Grand Mercure Roxy
Hello Happiness,
Goodbye depression
And lastly,
Hello Love=)

I think life is so funny,
Sometimes i feel sad,
Sometimes i feel happy,
Some days are good,
some days are bad,
Some friends come
Some friends go
Some friends stay for a season,
Some ffriends stay for a reason
Some love are meant to be
Some love are not meant to stay
The most important part is,
This is all part of growing up,
Its all part of this 4 letter word called LIFE

2010-01-01T14:34:00.033+08:00

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010

Hey people
I'm back
Wanna wish you guys a happpy new year folks!
There's many things i would like to say about 2009
I guess this year was a difficult year for me
Beginning, I got to get used without my much loved secondary school mates
Secondly, I got to get used to the working where humanity and intergrity is being questioned
Thirdly, living in a different environment without daddy
Howver,
all i can say is,
Without all these,
I wont be the Cassandra Dias I am right now
A stronger girl,
A happier girl,
A more positive girl
Lastly,
A better person
And my family,friends,colleagues,boyfriend are the reason i am today as well.
You guys are really my pillar of support
I really love you guys so much
Right now,
I'm gonna extend my gratitude with some photos sessions

Love Of My Life

Mr Phua Jun Yuan is the love of my life.

Thank you baby for the past 1 year of love,support and encouragment you have given me,

we have beenn together for the coming 2 1/2 years i should say,

Being in a relationship is a simple thing, but making it work is nevertheless not simple..

I'm sure we had some issues to work out initially but i'm glad its all over

Thank you for being you, the person who never stop thinking positive no matter how bad things are.

Thank you for your constant support when i felt work was like crap and life was hard to go by,

Even though,you couldnt always be by my side like other couple, But I dare to say we are stronger than any other couple who even meet everyday

Thank you for listening to my nagging and complains even though you always not happy

Thank you for buying me gifts once in a while even if you have no money

Thank you for buying me my favourite food when i ask

Most importantly,

For teaching me how to truely love a person,

Like wanting the best for that person,

For teaching me life,

Giving me the courage to smile,

Giving me the hope to live the way i want my life to be

This list could go on and on,

But baby,

Thank you for coming into my life,

Thank you for loving me when it was hard to do so at times

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

Thank You For Everything

Grand Mercure Roxy Life

This is my first full time job after secondary school.

I remember being so excited for it after getting this job.

I remember facing so much problems in the initial stage

That i was getting depressed, frustrated that i felt like giving up

This place made me seen how the real working world is,

Integrity,fairness,and humanity is being questioned by myself

Hardwork not being appreciaated

But nevertheless,

I told myself to hang on there,

And I'm glad i did..

Grand Mercure Roxy has taught me manny things

And gave me wonderful experience and memories

Despite good or bad,

I would say I'm proud of who i am today because of it

Attended Certified Service Professional courses,

And i learn to love serving people

Met many people from all works of life

Thank you for giving me the chance to work in the lounge

I enjoyed so much there

Where I learnt to believe in myself

Working here made me realise how much i miss secondary days,

Really hated eating alone,

really hated working with people with a hidden mask

Until I met Alice

She taught me many things,

And knowing her gave me the support to enjoy my work

I'm happy we could talk to each other about life even if we have a age gap

And i'm even happier that i could walk thru her love life with her

Seeing her getting married to the man of her dreams is like watching your kid grow

Its no doubt that small things like that make life great

And I really enjoyed our s'pore flyer, BBQ gatherings with her

Thank you for listening to my problems and sharing my happiness Mrs Loh

And then slowly came Mr Wong Sy Jye

I would always remember how i first met him at the lounge on the 17th floor

And he told me he didnt really liked me when we first met

But he's also my second pillar of support in my GMRH

I appreciate you Mr Wong for going work and going home with me

Even though you can just take 12,

But you always will take 31 to accompany me and make sure i reach home safely late at night

I miss our constant bus stops conversations in the wee hours,

Where we can go on and on about the hotel,

Our frustrations, happiness,fun will never be forgotten

I enjoy our KL trips,BBQ and S'pore flyer gathering with you as well,

I'm gonna miss you when i leave

But I will always be here if you need me

And thenn meeting the pinoys..

Seeing them live and work in a foreign land make me feel so contented with having a family

I do enjoy our small talks

And not forgetting our gathering

As I have tendered and serving my 1 month in grand mercure roxy,

I still believe and thank the hotel for giving me the chance to explore my goal in life

I believe i can achieve more in the future days of my life

But thank you my colleagues Alice,Sy Jye, and whoever who came into my life be it for a reason or season to watch me grow.

Thank you for the time and effort to listen to me, and lending me a shoulder to cry on

I love you guys

And all the best to you !

My Family

And 3rdly is my much loved family,

This year was kind of a difficult year for us

We had to shift out of lor ah soo to move to bedok

Where we had to come out of our comfort zone to face reality

It was also pretty tough for me cause daddy was not living with us anymore

But we managed to make it thru

I always believe God choose our parents when we were born

And i thank him for giving me such wonderful parents

without them

I wont be the big girl i am right now

They watch me grow,

from being a small girl, to having a boyfriend and working

I want them to see me getting married and having kids

I thank mummy for always giving the best she can

I thank her for giving me constant advice

I thank her for her love,support and concern

And even though daddy's not living with us anymore,

But i know i will always be his princess

He still love me the most

I understand god has a reason for what is happening right now

But i believe it is for the good of everyone

And not forgetting my irritating brother Timothy dias

The guy who never stop arguing with me

But when we cannot sleep in the middle of the night,

I will always talk to him

And he promise to batch any guy who try to hurt me

Thank you brother for your little effort

No matter how bad life is,

No matter how much i feel like dying,

I wont do so

Cause they are the reason why i am living so well

I want them to be so so happy

I love you guys

Thank you for the 1 year of love and concern=)

Last but not least,

I would like to thank my ex classmates..

This is the year where we go our separate ways,

Where we explore what life is all about

I never understand why i hated school so much in the past

And i really regretted not spending time with them

I miss our mahjong,spaghetti sessions

And as we lead our busy life,

You guys would be in my heart

Thank you especially Hilda,Jorinda,Jessie,Huiling,Bethleen,Xiu Wen,Yun Ting,Pei Qing,Michy,Fairli for taking the time to always ask how is life and making a effort to make this friendship last
Not forgetting Jasmine and Hillary,

Thank you for everyone's constant care

You guys are the actual ones who make me the Cassandra Dias i am now.

Thank you for watching me grow

And most importantly showering me with love

I miss you guys so much

And I have listed every single one of my life most important people who made my year 2009 a good year. I pray that 2010 will be a better year.

I dont have any resolutions

All i ask is for everyone to lead a happy life and be healthy.

whether good or bad,

Happy or sad,

Let's stay together

Jia you to making 2010 a good and blessed year

Thank you God for blessing me witth a blessed 2009

And i welcome you into my life in 2010

Amen

2009-12-29T16:22:00.003+08:00

Bad Romance...

Hi people once more.
And i think i have been resting for days
And its time to go back work tonight
Sians
But night shift is better than afternoon for sure
Time flies like nobody's business seriously when you work night shift
I got a feeling
That tonight's gonna be a good good night
Heehee..
I was smsing with darling just now
Sounded like he's in hell
My poor baby
I miss him so much
But i cannot wait to see him on saturday
I better whip up a good meal for him
I love you darling
Had a good chat with yunting and peiqing yesterday
It was a nice feeling after many years of not meeting up
And i'm glad they did feel better after talking to me.
No matter what girls,
Dont forget Sandra will always be here to listen ok?
Love you guys
Boys like girls is coming to town
Brother is going for greenday and paramore
I'm wondering if i wanna go for this
But at the same time,
I will be starting my new job there,
I dont wanna request here and there
Cause i dont want to leave a bad impression on my probation period
Oh well.
Hopefully things go well on the other side
I'm leaving Roxy in 16 days
Slowly counting down...
Sians...
And i really hope and pray that 2010 will be a better year for all of us ok?
And i believe it will be=)
Ok la,,
Need to rest before work
Take care folks..

And i pray to be happy forever and ever
Dont laugh at me,
Cause everyone has their own dreams,
And this is mine=)

2009-12-28T08:17:00.002+08:00

Merry Xmas...

Ok,
I am finally back
First of all,
I would like to wish everyone a very belated "Merry Xmas"
Xmas this year was kinda of boring
But nevertheless,
Spending it with your love ones is always most comforting even if there's no presents or tree
And after all the junk food i eat,
I am now at home on my bed down with gastric flu
Vommiting all those food out
It feels so terrible
But i'm glad i can use this opportunity to rest more before i feel more ready to return to work
Kinda miss Alice,Syjye at work
And today is Josephine's last day
Somehow,
I feel pretty sad
Cause in a few weeks time,
Its my time to leave as well
But if i never leave,
I would never find my piece of heaven=)
And of cause i miss my baby boy
Didnt spent this xmas with him due to a major fight
But we are more than loving now
And I was making fun with him about the facebook status
i was telling him
"Eh i found out something new about you in facebook leh.."
"Then he was like what leh?"
"I found out that your status now is in a relationship with a Cassandra Dias"
Then he laughed
I guess this is how we always flirt with each other
I love you baby!!!
And Peiqing might be coming to visit me tonight
Really miss my secondary school peeps
All having boyfriends,
Some having school today,
Some working
but i guess most is schooling
If you are one of them
Just wanna let you know
You are being missed by Cassandra Dias so badly
Continue enjoying your teenagerhood
Haha
Let's meet up real soon
And i hope to organise a gathering real soon
And i was watching S'pore idol last night
Wow
Its another malay male idol again
I do support Sezairi than Sylvia
I feel he is very original
And there is no doubt that in terms of music
The malays are always good for this
Well done S'pore once more
You made the right choice
Guess i will spend today doing up baby's xmas present
And updating my I-Touch=)
Do have a good day everyone!!

I have learnt that people are in and out of my life either for a season or a reason,
Soon i will be out of someone's life,
But i believe it is for a reason
and only God knows what it is..

2009-12-18T12:01:00.003+08:00

Finally After So Long..

I finally tendered..
No more suffering,
No more pretending
No more working like a dog..
now i'm gonna enjoy life
Prepared some sandwiches just now

AND I'M OFF TO EAST COAST NOT TO GRAND MERCURE ROXY HOTEL FOR WORK
BUT TO HAVE A PICNIC WITH BABY AND HIS BEST FRIEND AND COUSIN..

LIFE IS AN ADVENTURE
I DECIDED TO EXPERIENCE EVERYTHING...

2009-12-13T11:14:00.002+08:00

God I Believe This Is Part Of Your Plan....

And i'm back again
Back with nothing but happy feeling
Met up with my sweetheart ytd
So happy to see him
He cheated my feeling
Say got filet o fish burger
But when i reach there to eat,
It wasnt
He cheated my feeling,
Haha
It was so fun being with him
I showed off my I-Touch to him
And he was so jealous
We were playing the games inside happily
Lame but fun
The sweetest part was we were holding hands as we were playing
I love you baby
And we will be going sentosa next friday
Cannot wait baby!
Haha
And i got the job offer of Mt Emily Hangout place
I seriously got shocked when mummy told me
But i believe perhaps,
This is god's plan for me
And I decided to give it a go
Yes,
I do feel sad
But i have to move on
I have to feel happy somewhere
I have to find someone who appreciates my hardwork
And i believe
The ones who care for me in roxy will truely feel happy for me
Cause when you love someone,
You will want the best for someone
And i'm talking to Josephine at the moment on msn
And i cannot believe my tears is rolling down
Anyway,
I believe God has a better plan for me=)

God make all things beautiful in his time...

2009-12-10T12:22:00.002+08:00

Wonderous..

And I'm back again.
After million years,
Work has been good
Of cause what,
Been working with my motivator=)
And of cause seeing mini celebrity
Saw Joshua Ang
He abit ya ya
But still good looking
And not forgetting
That i personally check in Utt
He's so hot
And i kalang kabok
he ask if there's free internet
And in my heart,
I thought of royal club room
So i decided to give free upgrade to royal club room
Hehe..
He's super charming
And i was so happy
Secondly,
I bought myself the most expensive christmas present for myself this year
I bought myself an ipod touch
And despite the price of $468,
I really think i deserve it
Ever since i start working,
I see the world so much more
And i want so much more
I was so so impressed with how good the I Touch could be
Its more than just an ordinary mp3 player
I cannot believe i jailbreaked it even
I salute Apple
Good Job man
And now i'm super broke
But waiting for AWS and Bonus
Hehe
And i'm on night shift today
Got craving for sushi and thai express
But no kaki
Everyone's been so busy
And sometimes shopping and eating alone is the only option
Oh well
It good
I do enjoy my own company
And i seriously cannot wait for xmas and my leave next week
But i know i can leave baby out of all these
He will not be in my plan
And i dont plan to put him in
And i also think he dont have any plans to spend it with me
Oh well,
I still have my family and colleagues
But this year christmas is different
Cause its gonna be without daddy
And I feel kinda sad
Its funny how certain things that have to happen eventually happen
I miss my secondary school friends too
Sianz...
Anyway,
Gotta eat soon
Miss you guys
Take care babe!!

Last christmas i gave you my heart,
But the very next day you gave it away,
This year to save me from tears,
I will give it to someone special=)

2009-12-03T00:57:00.002+08:00

Exhaustion..

And i'm back again
Like after millions years..
Work has been exhausting,
But nevertheless,
the challenge is always satisfying
Tmr is my off day,
And i think i'm gonna start my shopping
Got to start writing down the christmas list
Christmas is coming soon,
But i'm feeling more lonely than ever
I miss my classmates.
I miss daddy
I miss baby
and i'm glad and surprised to receive a sms from xiu wen today
It really brightens my day
Thank you babe
And met up with baby was good
He bought me a handbag
And i love it so much
He says its my christmas pressie
So early seh
Anyway,
I better get something nice for him tmr
I cannot wait to shop
I wonder how is he right now
Been busy working till no time to sms him
Really hate it
Anyway,
I'm feeling a little hungry,
I wanna eat maggie mee
Hehe
Fatty Bon Bon Sandra
Good night

Christmas is coming,
But each year my presents are geting lesser,
Its not about the presents,
It only means the people in my life are getting further away from me

2009-11-25T09:43:00.002+08:00

Know that I've been loving you for so long....

Back again..
Work has been a pile of shit
But thank god,
I seriously had people supporting me
My life seems to be crashing down
And my mood is worse
Could it be hormones imbalance?
Recently,
I feel like crying
I dont know
I dont know how much longer i can hold on
I need someone
I need baby
I feel like shit without him
I feel a sense of emptiness and loneliness
But no one will ever understand
Cause either they have someone by their side
Or either they think they dont need anyone
I have been thinking a lot once again
Thinking of things that i shouldnt be thinking,
Thinking about things that has already happened
And yesterday,
I saw daddy's girlfriend,
I dont feel angry,
I just felt in my heart.
Is this woman better than mummy?
Mummy done so much for this family
What has she done?
but maybe i feel,
Everyone needs someone
Just like we need a companion
And the same gones for me as well
The only difference are the purposes,
I feel like running away again
I'm not upset by that
I just feel i need something to help get me by
I'm beginning to hate my job,
Hate my life..
I dont have any really true friends like my classmates before
Everyone is putting on a mask
And sometimes,
I begin to wonder.
The person i trust the most,
Are they really concerned about me?
Or are they concerned about me because they have no choice
Or they have hidden motives?
I feel everything is no meaning
Can someone tell me why?
I realise this is all of God's plan
I have been returning to church
But i know God wants me totally back to his side
So in times like these,
I can pray to him
And i will be closer to him
In everything, i pray to God
Amen.

Its not about knowing how to live with the one you love,
Its about knowing how to live without them.

2009-11-22T09:54:00.002+08:00

I Want That Job And I Want You...

Back once more,
Work ytd was another war
Only Nafisah,Kartini and me
But it was fufilling as we couldnt believe we checked out 230plus departures
Its amazing right?
Our paperwork was pilling
Haha
And i checked in one of the marina bay sands count manager
And he asked me to send in my resume if i'm interested there
So i already send
And i sent in resume for my dream job as a wedding planner
I hope they grant me an interview
It has always been my dream job
I want that job so so so badly
Anyway,
Enough of serious matter,
I will be going church today to thank god for the good bbq we had
And them meet up with mr wong for work
I feel so lazy to work
Everyday this hotel is long queue
And everyday work until so long
I think my passion is running dry
Its so tiring
Anyway,
I will just jia you
Baby is back
But wont be meeting him this week
Mummy has a complimentary stay next week in my hotel
Maybe baby and i can stay
Hopefully Ms Ng allows
Cause Cynthia also make a booking ytd
And we were making fun of her
So bad,,
Hehe
But nevertheless.
Life still has to be happy
Right or not?
Happy also have to live,
Sad also have to live
So why not live with a smile on your face=)
I love you guys
Without every single one of you,
I think i wont be the person i am today
Especially mummy and baby
I miss baby so much
But i think its good to be apart for a while,
This way he will miss me more
Right baby?
Lets jia you people to make our live a happy one

Have you felt you want something so badly for the 1st time,
That you are hungry for it,
And you cannot stop smiling if you imagine you got it

2009-11-20T14:00:00.002+08:00

Something's Telling Me It Might Be You...

And its raining heavily on my side,
Here i am drinking soyabean and lying on my bed blogging
Its such a nice weather
I would want you by my side to cuddle me and sleep
I thank God for yesterday's BBQ and weather
I knew it was raining ytd
From the front desk,
Of cause i could see how heavy the rain was
Karen,Ida and Josephine was asking me"How Cass?"
"Its raining,how we bbq?"
And i straight away told them "Please believe in God"
I prayed the night before
And i'm sure the rain will come to an end
True enough,
Around 5pm when we were ready to go
The rain was minimal
Though Josephine and Karen were rather unhappy due to work
We did managed to start a fire with Jack's help
Hehe
When we reach the shelter,
We quickly opened up the ready made food
And ate like hungry ghosts
Sy Jye and I kept our breakss just for this
haha
The funniest thing was i bought chicken wings and prawns,
But never marinate them
So he had to accompany me to buy them
And he was complaining all the way
We took lots of wonderful memorable photos
Enjoyed the martini and of cause the food
Nevertheless,
Time always flies when you are having fun
At 9pm,
We wrapped things up thinking we wanna play true or dare
But in the end,
They were tired
So Syjye and i took a taxi home
He's so sweet
He got down at my place and help me carry the food all the way up to the lift
Thank you babe
And thank you to the rest of you for making this happen
Despite of people laughing at us due to the rain
Despite of you even having the doubts whether we could start the fire
I enjoyed myself
And i hope you guys enjoyed it too
And i'm on public holiday leave today
Thank god i'm not working
In such a weather,
I would love to listen to my love songs,have a hot bevearage and read a book
While i am enjoying on my side,
I can imagine how baby is suffering in this cold weather at another island
My poor baby
I miss him so much
Baby
Jia You!!
And i pray that everyone will have a good day today=)

Its telling me it might be you all of my life...

2009-11-17T14:40:00.002+08:00

The End Is Near...

Hi people once more.
I finally got some time to pen things down here
Life has been much of a opener to me for the past few days,s
Its like God is telling me certain things that i cannot see
Interview was great,
The Jewel Box was really beautiful
If i get the job there,
I really pray it will be the environment i want
Perhaps i should dine there one day
Such an amazing place Singapore has
Pray that i get the damn job=)
But if i dont,
God still has another plan for me
And surprising i went to church on Sunday
Its been such a long time since i went there.
Really miss going for catchism
I cannot lose my faith
After church,
Mummy,Tim and I went for 2012
Its been 19 years of my life since we last watch a movie
I always have this little dream to watch a movie with my full family
But sadly,
It has to be without daddy
And i really pray hard that my own children wont experience this
I think one thing about me is i like to dream
But its perfectly fine to do that even though the world may be against it
And i have certain expectations of life
Like i expect to get a certain job,
Expect to get a certain boyfriend,
Expect to have certain family rules,
I think i expect too much
But then again i think its good
So 2012 was an excellent movie
I was crying again..
So saddening
Will this time come where you rush to tell your loved ones how much you love them?
Will this time come where you repent cause you are going to die?
I certainly hope not..
I guess we should not take too many things and people for granted
The movie effect was really excellent
Good job to the producer and director!!
I enjoyed the movie
And recently,
I met baby
He ordered in pizza for me again
But somehow,
Where me and he is concerned,
I still feel like certain things has changed,
I know he still care and love a great deal about me
But its just my perfect picture is fading off
And he will always think i think too much
But i seriously hate when people get judgemental
I guess man are like that
Anyway,
I still miss him..
And work has been tiring
But with Mr Wong,
He certainly made my night
Hehe..
Our night shift was fabulous
And after work,
We had Mac breakfast.
Can you imagine we left work at 8am
And chatted over once more until 11am plus
And i didnt felt tired at all,
Its like we can go on and on about our life
Its amazing once more
And work with Eunice was super sleepy
I couldnt take it after 4am
I felt super super sleepy
Sianz...
Life is such a stupid routine
But i just realised that 19 is drawing near
And i super cannot wait for it man
I pray for a good weather
And of cause pray for lots of fun
Got to go guys,
Have a good day ahead
Let's jia you...

The end is near,
When stars starts drop from the sky,
When the earth is shaking
That is when the son of God will come
He will come to take us away...

2009-11-12T09:38:00.002+08:00

Here In My Heart...

And hi world.
I'm finally back
Work has been shitty the past few days
Full house due to APEC
And i seriously have problems finding room no matter how pro i am
We were like on a battlefield fighting over rooms
It was kinda fun actually
Cause Cynthia will always take the room that we release for our guests
And ytd we had supper
Me,jack,ida and cynthia had supper at Old Hongkong Cafe
We were like some hungry ghosts
But thank god for a great company like that
If other people,
I wont go
Still, unfairness arises...
Last time used to be the malays,
But now are the chinese speaking cantonese
Seriously,
It will few days for me to explain how unhappy i am in this stupid GMRH
That is why i will be going for interview today for another job
I hate going for interviews
Cause i have to start acting all over again
And i will feel nervous
Wish me luck man
But i think working in the hotel has opened me up so much more
And did i tell you that i have booked my bbq pit ytd
This is the first time doing it at the AXS machine
And its kinda fun,,
After booking the pit,
I even went all the way to the beach to search exactly the location
I'm like that,
If i'm excited for something
I will do my best to plan it
And so we will all have a good time on the 19 nov ya?
We will be bitching about the rest of the department idiots
And we will be drinking like there's no tomorrow
I hope all goes well
And ytd,
I was busy working to reply baby's massage
But he said a line that makes my day
He said i'm the best girlfriend
And i think to myself,
How can i be the best girlfriend when i didnt do anything?
Dont you guys get that feeling?
Like someone said you are the best friend/mother/wife/girlfriend...
But you felt you didnt do anything to totally earn that line..
But i still wanna thank baby for that
Cause i thinks he knows that i have been lonely without him
Since he's in the army
We have not met for 2 weeks
And i really miss him so badly..
Hais...
Anyway..
In short,
I'm really excited for my damn BBQ and nervous for my job interview
I really pray hard this is another of God's plan for me=)

Whenever i miss,miss you so much
Its more than i can take
Your kiss and your touch,
I will never forget
Here in my heart,
There's a picture of us
Together forever
Forevermore,
You'll be here in my heart

2009-11-07T22:08:00.003+08:00

Same Place, Different Feelings...

Evening people..
Just came back from dinner with mummy and daddy
We went to dunman foodcourt
I remember the last time going there was half a year ago
I kept complaining why same place same food
But now i really treasure the time with daddy
I remember him looking after me when i was a little baby
I know how much he treats me like a spoilt princess
I miss him even though he's not a good husband
But to me,
He really loves me alot
And i hope he will be there for my wedding one day
I love you daddy
And i miss baby so so so much
He send me a message today
At least i know he's safe out there
And i cannot wait to see him
We have not met for 2 whole weeks
And boy..
I think i'm dying
Heehee
Love you my babyboy
You better hold me tight when you are back
Miss you=)
here in my heart,
There's a picture of both of us always and forever=)
Have you ever been to the same place but experience different feeling everytiime?
I think thats me..
I get different realisation every time i go to somewhere
I'm sure if i go back to PL
The feeling i will get will be so so different
It will be better than in the past
Humans are just so uncontented
But i really enjoyed school life so so much
Miss you guys man!
Let's jia you

Cause i want my life to be a mixture of sweet,sour,spicy and bitter
Thats when i know i'm living life not living through life..

2009-11-06T17:17:00.002+08:00

XOXO..

And i'm back
I wondered how i could survive that 12 hours of work without sleep
It felt like hell
But thank god my supervisior was Felisia
If not i couldnt have make it thru
The moment i came to work,
I saw Mr Tay planning the rooster
And i told him about my bbq plan on the 19 nov
I'm so excited
And Jack was so sweet when i told him
He said he will ask his aunty to prepare the food
Thats something nice coming from a man's mouth
and perhaps,
I will have to request AL on that day
Cause i'll be C with Mr Wong
Like finally
Our chance to work together again
Lucky he enjoying his time with mickey mouse in HK
Hehe
Anyway,
Thank god,
I'm on OIL today
Can get to rest
And the worse thing was the both resumes that i sent out replied me
I dont know what to do
I feel kinda sad to leave
At first,
I send just to test my luck
Looks like now i better go for the interview
One thing about me is hating to start things all over again
I hate starting to know people again
I'm so scared outside is worse than GMRH
yet if i stay,
I will never know how good outside can be
As i was sleeping
Darling called me
So happy to hear his voice
today is our 2 years 5 months anniversary
And its coming to 2 weeks that i have not seen him
I'm getting rather impatient
I understand he's also tired
But i hope he knows that i want to see him so badly
I miss him
Past few days have been missing his calls due to afternoon shifts
I feel bad for that as well
But i dont want to mix personal with work
I hope he doesnt blame me for that
I'm sure he wont
Cause he's very understanding
I think understanding is a factor i need most in my relationship
and i'm doing my best for my other half as well
I guess he knows that
I'm not being pessimistic
But i think work has been taking up my life
And i feel i'm growing up too quickly
I so miss secondary school days
Everyday seemed so carefree than now
I remember how we will study together,makan and play
Life was great during those days
I miss it so much
Anyway,
I believe there are still many other things to look forward to...
Life is still slowly unfolding..
I believe it will all fall into the right place at the right time

I'm crazy for you..
touch me once and you will know its true

2009-11-05T01:14:00.003+08:00

And I...

Hey world,
Its 1.15am
And i just got back from work
The world is sleeping right now
But i cannot
because i miss my baby
because i'm thinking whether i should resign tmr
because i'm having the mood to write my entry
Work was good today i must say
Though there were 20 rooms flight delay
People,
Please do my take Singapore Airlines flights,
Warning,
They are the only one that always delay
Kiasu seh
So beware!!
Once again,
Ytd was a rather weird day
As i mentioned,
Mr Wong and i were on coldwar
Its hard not being able to control my mouth
And he was the supervisior
I walked up and down the counter
And finally,
I grabbed his hands and asked him
And so i knnow the reason now
But i wont say it here
So naturally,
I guess he couldnt control as well,
And we went home together
And deja vu happened again
We reached the bus stop at 6pm
And chatted until 10pm
Its amazing isnt it?
With many people getting up and down the bus
With many people walking around
I really felt that it was such amazing thing
We chatted about the hotel, the hotel people and our future holidays
We planned to go night safari and sentosa next month
I always wanted to go nighht safari and he also
Its like i'm beginning to wonder " is he my soulmate?"
Sadly,
Baby doesnt like going these places,
So i wont bother to ask him
And on the account that he brought me around to KL
Its my duty as a singaporean to bring him to sentosa island
He's going Hongkong tmr
And i wish him a safe flight
And i really hope he will enjoy himself
Thank you friend for listening to my 4 hours of crap=)
And the bbq i've been looking forward to will be on 19 november
I cannot wait
I miss my babyboy..
I think he must be sleeping now
I hope he sleeps well
I wanna see,kiss and hug him so badly
Baby,
I'm thinking of you,
And i wonder sometimes,
Do you think of me too?
Missing a person is such a terrible feeling
As i feel we have drifted too much
but there's nothing i can do
I can only wait for you=)
Anyway,
I'm feeling itch all over my body plus a flu
I hope its not H1N1
Hehe
Joking la
I miss my ex classmates
Meet up soon ok?
Muacks
Tmr will be a better day...

And i'm beginning to wonder,
What is the reason i'm hanging on to this job,
What is the reason i'm hanging on to life,
Izit because of you?
And i realise its love

2009-11-02T15:45:00.002+08:00

Without You, Its hard to survive...

And i'm back again
I'm down with the flu once again
The weather's has been very bad
and perhaps i have not been looking after myself well
Heven been eating and sleeping well
I think i'm lovesick
I feel so so bad
And my mood is not right as well
Baby,
I miss you
when can i see you?
Life's so hard without you
I dont think i can pull through without your support
I'm so sad...
And going to work has been a torture
And i decided to throw my letter tmr
I believe i will find somewhere better
Somewhere i feel more belonged
My suffering will end after tmr
Wish me luck peoplle

I dont know why,
But i feel like dying without you
I feel life is getting so hard to go on
I need to see your smile=)

2009-10-31T17:15:00.002+08:00

Pointless..

And hi again everyone,
Have been on night shift,
Work has been super tiring and unbearable,
What makes it worse is that my only confidant is still upset with me
I guess he doesnt want to be friends with me anymore,
As he tells people we are no longer friends
If he wants to keep it that way,
I'll respect him
I feel that its time to leave
That place is horrible,
Its the management problem as well
I'm glad mummy supports my decision
She says no point working like a dog and not being happy
Thats my mummy man
We share the same thoughts
Haha
Sick man of that stupid place
God will have a better plan for me,
I trust in him for that
And i'm so happy baby is back home
But i wont be able to meet him
He's tired
and i understand him for that
you see,
I realise love is not about sex or meeting everyday
Its about wanting the best for that person
If you love him/her
As long you know that person is happy,
You will be happy too=)
Love you baby
And i want you to know that
And shopping with mojojo was splendid yesterday
Really miss school days
Just innonence and true friendship
I miss you guys so much
Stay happy=)

2009-10-29T10:31:00.002+08:00

Missing You Is Like Slow Death..

And i'm back
My course was good
Had the time to know Johairy,Francis,Sharon and Valerine better
And the other participents were all very interesting
Mostly from LTA
This course changed my mindset of many things
And the best part was i won the best coach award
Didnt believe i had the ability to be a good coach
I'm so proud of myself=)
Really enjoyed our meals at newton circus with my coconut drink
Learned many different sides of people from GMRH
Especially towards Johairy
Cause i didnt really like him
But now i know he's a very responsible family man
And I didnt know Francis parents are teachers,
That explains his good english
And Sharon has been so nice waiting for me to buy dinner home
Sharon's so nice
Thank you guys
I hope we can work better in the near future
I hope to go for more courses
Hehe
And i miss my little boy so so so much
I miss his voice
I wonder how is he
Baby i want to see you so badly
Please take good care of yourself
Sians...
Life without you is just so saddening
I'm so hungry
And i dont feel like working tonight with Eunice
We have no common topics
I rather work with Felisia
She's so much nicer
And i have apologised to that someone
But i guess that someone is still upset with me
He's not just someone
I didnt mean to make you angry,
And i want y0u to know you are my friend not no one
Please forgive me
Looking forward to us being friends again
Overall,
I enjoyed my past 2 days
Everyone take care=)

I miss you like crazy, no what i say or do..

2009-10-26T23:24:00.002+08:00

I Miss You..

And i'm back
Listening to secondhand serenade songs never fail to keep me more calm than ever
I admit i was really angry when i saw that comment from someone,
But all i can say is,
I should have already expect this outcome,
I have a slight clue of who i think it might be,
But i dont wanna make any wild guesses
Assumptions and blaming is not gonna make things better
But just wanna say to that someone,
For the past 3-4 years of my daily entries,
Thank you for being the 1st to have the courage to say me
Thank you very much for your comment
If you bother to give this type of comment,
Then i can tell you that maybe i do mean something to you,
I always look things at a wider picture,
If you dont care about me,
You wont even bother writing this comment for me to change
I will try my best to change
But if you dont like what you are seeing in my personal space,
please feel free to exit out of my blog
Cause this is where i dont hide any feelings
This is a place i feel more free
Cause it belongs only to me me and me
And work was rather alright today
It was nice pace with sufficent staff
And Ricardo and I are gonna have a bbq
Cannot wait man
That is something i look forward to
I'm gonna attend a course for the next 2 days
I love courses.
Better than working=)
Hehe
And i received baby's sms around 4am this morning
I got a shock
I'm really worried for him
Cause he's going out to the jungle
I hope everything will be fine for him
I love you boy
Take care!
I miss certain people..
I miss spending time with them
Basically,
I realised we moved on quicker than we expected things to be
Life is just so funny
And i see myself growing as well
The good and bad,
I will willingly accept
I will be a better person,
I know i can baby

And i think the best part of my life is being me...

2009-10-25T21:47:00.002+08:00

I Wish..

And thinking i will be calm and happy for the next few days,
I was wrong,
I felt work was like shit
The hotel's pretty screw up
Full of Shit
The people were irritating the hell out of me
They are selfish selfish and selfish
I feel so fed up
I feel so helpless.
And when i needed someone's help,
That someone felt it wasnt important
How am i gonna work in that horrible place
Whats the point of being colleagues?
All you care is about yourself
Sick of feeling disappointed.
I really treated you as my friend
What about you?
And now i know that you will know who your friends are when you need help
I miss my secondary school friends,
Looking back,
They are the only truest
I'm losing hope baby
And baby is away in camp,
There's no one i can rely on
Watever la..
I feel like crying
I feel so emo
I dont know why
I guess the whole part is i feel so unimportant to anyone
No one is willing to listen to me,
No one is willing to spend time on me,
No one bothers asking me how i am,
No one bothers to tell me how much they need me
I feel so so depressed
Why does it feel like crap?
Is life suppose to be like a straw
Cause it sucks?
And i'm glad i received baby's call
He's not in a good mood
But he just cannot understand why i'm not in a good mood too
We all have the right to feel what we feel
I miss you babyboy
I miss your hug that make me feel safe
I miss your smile that make me feel better
Lastly,
I miss your kiss that make me smile
I love you boy!

And i'm here to sing,
About the things that mattered
About the things that made us alive for so long
About the things that kept you on my side when i was wrong

2009-10-22T10:12:00.003+08:00

When Love Happens..

Ok baby,
I'm back again
I've been off on tuesday
And attended training yesterday by Tiffany
Love the role play
Thats one thing i love about training
This is something we can never get in school
After training,
As usual, went home with Mr Wong
Had a 2 hour chat with Mr Wong at the bus stop again
I pretty much enjoyed myself
During my off on Tuesday,
I watched When Love Happens online,
Its not out yet in the cinema
But the show was great
Jennifer Aniston is still as beautiful
And this show plot is great
Love really happens when you least expect
Like someone sent by God to change you
To make your world a better place
Love is amazing
And its all God's plan
Cause he love you
Anyway,
Baby has been busy at night training
And i was tired at night
So when i woke up,
I saw his lovely massage
Never fail to make me smile
I miss you so much baby,
Dont worry,
I have been fine
Continue to jia you
Love you-)
And i'm feeling a little lazy to go work
Heard its full house situation again
Really hate this feeling
Its like i'm gonna have problem finding rooms again
Its not fair that guest pay for rooms that they want,
And they cannot get what they pay for
I think i'm gonna die
God,
Please bless my soul
I pray that work today will be a smooth one
Jia you Cassandra Dias

Love can change a person,
Love can make a person smile,
Love can give a person the drive to life better
Aku Cinta Pandamu

2009-10-20T01:16:00.002+08:00

New Realisation...

And hello people.
I guess everyone is sleeping at this moment
Just got back from work as i'm typing this entry
Work was quite alright today
Except for the fact that I had to wait for Ricardo until my hair turned grey
We went home together eventually.
Its a nice feeling to have people staying around you
Its even nicer if that some people can walk you home,
I remember in primary and secondary,
Either Rachel or Stephanie walks home with me
I'm a person who cannot go home alone,,
Go ahead and laugh,
I dont care man
I miss Lor Ah Soo,
That route i used to work home after school
I miss that feeling
I dont understand why i always complain
And now i understand
As you grow older,
People get more nostalgia and sentimental
And i'm feeling that way
I'm sick man
Down with a flu and sore throat
Want to take MC tmr
But i'm off tmr
Like what the hell right?
and on wed i'll be having training with Mr Wong,
I dont wanna miss our gossip session
Baby was so sweet,
Love the way he care for me,
How i wish he could come personally to take care of me..
To me,
Taking care is a important factor of a man,
I love baby because of the way he care for me,
He make sure i'm in good condition all the time,
He make sures i see a doctor when i am sick
Reading my new book has really helped me gain knowledge
And i will try my best to see the good side of Baby
He's been complimenting how pretty and cute i've been looking
I guess he's beginning to treasure me more
I miss you baby
Thank you for saying how beautiful i am even though i'm growing fatter
Hehe
Ok,
Enough about love,
Today,
I went to draw money from my bank
And i realised i really have been wasting so much money
I couldnt believe that i spend 2500 with 6 months
I need to save man
And i need more time to learn Malay..
Aiyo,,
Got to sleep now,,

Aku Cinta Baby...
Love is when you look me in the eyes and you dont say a single thing,
But then i already know you love me....

2009-10-16T20:07:00.002+08:00

Peacefulness...

Evening everyone..
And now i'm in the comfort zone of my bed typing this post..
My mood these few days have been peaceful and calm
And i love this feeling
cause it makes me a patient person
And i always hope to be patient
Did alot of reflecting and bought a few good books
One on love and one on life
Been feeling a little urge to read and gain knowledge
I read on the way to work,home and before i start work
I kinda miss reading
Anyway,
I hope to be smarter definitely
Work has been busy
But nevertheless,
I'm trying my best to be positive
Even though baby's not by my side
But i know he will super support me for sure
Will be meeting him tmr hopefully
I'm glad even though he's tired,
He still wanna spend time with me
I have been so not understanding towards him
Oh well.
Reading 69 love notes did help me a little
I miss you babyboy,
See you tomorrow
Muacks!
And you know what,
I suspect Mr Wong is angry with me,
I feel a change in his attitude towards me,
I bought his kino brueno but he rejected it
But thank god,
He accepted it eventually,
I just dont wanna lose a colleague,
I just dont wanna lose my going home & work khaki
Mr Wong,
I apologise sincerely here if i have offended you
"I'm sorry"
Maybe i've been thinking too much
But i just know things between us is changing
Hopefully you will forgive me=)
Let's be friends again!
And as i'm typing this entry,
I'm watching this channel 8 show where this indian lady gave birth
I seriously cannot imagine myself being a mother
And i cannot imagine being pregnant
But i'm sure baby will be so happy
Hehe
I think i imagine too much
But thats me
I love to day dream
And up to this moment,
I can say i'm a successful little girl,
I have a good family who care for me,
A good boyfriend who loves me so much,
A job that never stopped me from experiencing life,
And a face that is pleasant=)
I shall think positive
Cause I know God has a plan for me
Despite everything,
I know that there is a God who loves me...

Life is what you make out to be..

2009-10-12T17:11:00.002+08:00

I Love The Way You Love Me...

And i'm back again
Have the urge to change blogskin
But i dont know how to..
So sickening right?
Like there's something you wanna do but dont know how to do..
hate that useless feeling
Just like how i plan to take up malay
Cause i feel eurasians should speak malay
And i feel malay is so cool in my department now
Even though i dont really like them
No offence but true
So bad those people.
Staff work so hard and late,
Dont even offer OT
What kind of manager are you?
Got the urge to complain to Mr Wong,
Bet he will agree with me more.
We wont be working together this whole week
And whose great idea it is?
Must be Mr Why lor..
But its ok..
This department is full of crappy people
I really ta bulei tahan
And what kind of manager dont want to either take float or be supervisior
Wheregot let supervisior take float
What the hell of a Senior Duty Manager are you?
So what?
Big deal ah?
Idiot
So lazy
Dont know why so blind give you that position
And the blardee stupid"Special Requests" report
Who the hell came up with that
Always come to work only know how to block your stupid rooms.
C'mon la..
Morning shift just concentrate on your checking out la
Dont pretend sit inside and laze around
Argh..
Anyway,
At least i do my specials ok
Idiot idiot idiot
So irritated
Anyway,
Enough about all these.
Let's talk about happy thing
So met up with honeypie on sat
Went to his house
And i'm so angry that he overstretched my new dorothy perkin blouse
I love the way he hug me and didnt want to let me go
And he ordered in pizza for our dinner
Hehe..
Love that lil boy of mine=)
And today is my off day.
Would like to take the time to rest
And i hate this facebook,
Cannot seem to upload my pictures
I feel like a grumpy old woman
Haha
What's new
I feel like going for holiday again
Dont know la..
I really wanna save up for my Carribean trip baby
I can do it!
Got to go folks.
Gd bye
Have a wonderful evening ahead

Dont love me for fun,let me be the one,
Love me for a reason,
Let the reason be love..

2009-10-09T13:54:00.002+08:00

500 Days Of Summer..

Hey people.
I'm back again
Life has been hectic the past few days
1st was jamming session with Huiling and brother
We were singing out lungs out
I miss ah choo so much
But we had fun
2nd was shopping with Mojo
We watcched Fame
Its a rather good show but just a little confusing
What is fame to me?
Fame is love,friendship and kinship
Money and power is nothing
Love her company
Work has been shiok ah dododo
So many staff makes things easier
And its good to be able to go home on the dot
I really pray no flight delay tonight due to typhoons
Cause i am on night shifts
I just finish watching 500 days of summer online
Its a good show about fate and destiny
Like how you thought that person was meant to be,
But the other person did not think that way,
Oh well,
You will know if it is..
While watching alone,
I received a message from honeypie
he told me he will be booking out tmr
And he's abit upset and all,
But what can we do ya?
I'm suree those with army boyfriends understand
But i cannot wait to meet him tmr
Yups..
We have not met for 2 weeks
Due to weddings,
I just wish one day 2 of us will be able to attend a wedding together
Oh well
See you tmr baby
I dont know what else i should say
I gotta eat lunch now
See you folks.
Take care

I dont know why,
I dont know how,
But would you believe if i said you are the one?

2009-10-05T14:59:00.002+08:00

You Will Never Live Untill You Love With All Your Heart And Soul....

And i'm finally back to this space of mine,
How i miss it so much
Finally back from my Kuala Lumpur trip
This trip was a fruitful one
Did lots of shopping,
Did lots of sightseeing,
Did lots of walking,
Did lots of eating,
And not to forget lots of reflection
But i thank god for Sy Jye,
He brought me to many good places to shop and eat
And i feel really bad for making him a little irritated with me
I'm sorry Mr Wong=)
But i am still grateful for him
This trip is fantastic
And i have thought about alot of things,
About my job, love and many others
Of cause people will always think
Go holiday why still must think think think
But holiday is the best time for me to figure out what i really want
Spending time with Syjye has let me see a different side of him
Of cause,
The good side of him
He is smart,
And i always love our heart to heart chats
It never fail to make me smile
And of cause we are not in love,
We are just best friends.
I didnt meet my soulmate
But i believe that destiny is a funny thing
Seeing Alice and Jack getting married is the best example
You wont know who you will truely end up with..
But in my heart,
Somehow,
I guess i had some question marks.
But I must have faith in what i believe
I am really happy for Alice
I really wish you guys everlasting love
what is yours is yours,
There's no running away from it
This is so true=)
I miss baby
And i wished he could witness that wonderful event
I'm sure he would have the same feeling as i do
Anyway,
I seriously dont want to return to work tmr..
Can i just throw my resignation letter to Mr Tay's face?
Baby, can you come to my rescue?
I miss you so much..

Cause i believe that destiny is out of our control,
You will never live until you love with all of your heart and soul..
I know that I'm truely blessed=)
I would give you my best

2009-09-15T00:50:00.002+08:00

Come And Set Me Free..

And work these few days feels like a battlefield,
But thank god working with the right people
We often bicker over rooms
So afraid someone will steal our rooms
Work is busy yet fun
Now i feel abit attached
Perhaps i never knew that i am slowly growing attached to the people there
I am saying all these because i am in the midst of job hopping
Only when i am about to lose it,
Then i miss it
I miss baby seriously..
I know he must be suffering in army
So i will try my best to be an understanding girlfriend
Love you baby
I am off tmr
Cannot wait to have a good rest
15 more days to my KL trip baby=)

2009-09-13T11:25:00.002+08:00

Stupid..

Hi...
Going to work at 3pm..
It is stupid going to work on a weekend where everyone is enjoying themself in a hotel
Either having sex,
Either have a swim at our pool,
Either having some family gathering,
Either having a break from their busy life
And worst thing is i have to do their checking in
I think at some point in time,
I feel envy of them,
I really need a break
I know i should stop complaining
But i blady hell need someone by my side to tell me they support me
I wanna go for a holiday
I really feel like packing my bags,
Leave this country without a sound,
Here i come my carribean island
I swear i will marry any man who wanna go there with me
Imagine the beautiful sea and sand
I know i like to day dream
But thats me
Baby..
I am not your magazine buyer
Though i would gladly buy that for you..
I am your girlfriend for crying out loud
I thinking i better stop wasting my time
My precious time on this fucking stupid job and other shit
I am just heaty
Parden me for my sudden anger
I wish i can get that job

Will you take me on a carribean trip?

2009-09-10T22:08:00.002+08:00

You Are Still The One I Belong To...

Baby Baby..
I miss you..
Please call me
Hope you are having a good time in army=)
and please dont mix with the wrong company
Why do i miss him so much?
Why do i want to hear his voice so badly?
Why do i miss his kisses
Why do i long for his hugs.
Why do i miss quarrelling with him?
Why do i miss him spoiling me?
Why do i miss sleeping next to him?
Cause i think this is called love..

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

2009-09-09T20:12:00.002+08:00

Cause Someone's Bound To Hear Me Cry...

And i am back again..
After many days of work work and work
But i'm glad its with SyJye..
Sometimes.
I'm just glad i have going home khaki
If not i feel so depressed
But i cannot rely too much on him
But sometimes,
I wish i can get used to a person until i will miss a person,
But sadly,
There's no one i feel about this way
I have been doing alot of thinking recently..
I decided to try the job that mum recommended me
Its a higher pay and lesser stress..
I do love my hotel job
But i dont want to waste my time in that place
So many negative energy in that place
Hehe..
Its time for a change..
Are human suppose to be greedy?
Why cant they just be contented with what they have?
I dont know la..
Just a little confused and fed up
Certain things are just so hard to give up,
But there's also no point hanging on to it
I decided to save my money and travel to Carribean alone..
I am dying to go there man
Hehe,
And i'm on the phone with baby now
He's going army tmr
So sad..
Cannot see or hear him for 2 weeks
Oh well.
Absence makes the heart grow fonder,
Baby I will miss you
I will be a good girl ya=)
Hehe

He made me smile when he told me he loves me too=)

2009-09-06T00:43:00.002+08:00

Good Girls Gone Back...

I'm finally back baby..
Work has been hectic and real hectic..
Long Queues and no rooms,
Sometimes really no motivation to go work
I realise now my whole life is only work work and work
And Mr Tay attached Felisia to me
Maybe my only thought is to teach her well.
But still feel very tired
I really need a holiday man
The next trip should be the KL trip for Alice's wedding
I cannot wait to take a breather
And baby gonna go army next thursday
Took off to send him off..
Happy 2 years 3 months baby!
And i love baby's face massage
I love you baby
Take care when you are inside
You said your cousin says 90% off the girls are not understanding
I just want you to know that i am the other 10% who is understanding=)
Oh well..
What will happen will eventually happen..
Sians,,
I feel so tired
Must be due to partying at chevys last night
But it was fun
at least,
I met daddy and the Dias side
Its so fun being a Dias
Cause we always eat,drink and party
What a real Dias blood=)
Like what i say,
Most importantly,
Must be super duper happy
And i know I am happy
And only i can make myself happy in this world
Cheers
And I am working with Mr Wong tmr
He better not leave me alone..
Its funny why we can talk like there's no tmr
Thats why i say he's my girlfriend=)
Goodnight world
Hello sleep=)

And who doesnt want someone to hold,
Someone who knows how to love you without being told,
There's a soulmate for everyone,
And you could be my soulmate

2009-09-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

Losing My Rationality Is My Forte...

And my mood is back to stable and peaceful
work has been alrite except for some lazy ass..
Always standing at the supervisior counter acting like one
Still dare to ask me why am i not holding float
Hello" I am more senior than you"
Of cause you should hold the float
Afterall,
I ever teach you things before
Never bite the hand that feed you
Perhaps you have not heard of this phrase before?
But its ok
This has and will always be the culture of Grand Mercure Roxy Hotel ya
Lazy people,
Sarcastic people,
Hypocrites..
And what more can i say?
Whatever la
Enough of silly rantings,
Went to heartland ytd,
I so miss that mall
That mall where i grew up
That mall when i and my friends hang out
I was practically acting like a mad woman when i took bus 113
Oh how i miss taking that bus with friends,
Friends like Stephanie,Jessie...
And of cause many others,,
Where we will go eat thai express.
Really miss my secondary school daays
Those are the best
I hope and believe everyone is doing well now=)
Dear people,
Do well or not is not important,
Always remember to be happy is the most important
This is cassandra theory
I have never change from day #1
And baby and I had the best conversation ytd after 2 years.
He asked me which are my secondary friends that i am closest to
And i like having this heart to heart talk
I love my baby
Better take care once you go army
I will miss you and your hugs ok?
Muacks..
I am updating for you baby=)
I love you.

Sometimes. I feel that my life is like a mess.
But this mess makes me grow up,
Sometimes, I feel that my life is like calm sea,
But this makes me cherish things and people more
But despite it all,
I believe i did grow and understand myself more=)

2009-08-28T17:06:00.002+08:00

Meet Me At The Hotel!

And Mrs Alice Loh is saying that i am not updating my blog
So i shall update for her
Its nice to know someone is interested about your life
And i am thankful for people like her
Work has been good
We hit 100% yesterday
Of cause la,,
You must see who working ma!
Hehe
Joking la
But i feel happy
I suddenly feel that we are growing as a team now
Especially on the wednesday morning,yt
When i went to collect stocks with Arthur
Everyone helped to move them
I feel so happy
But everything depends on mood la..
And i met up with baby
Went over to his house ytd
I am so happy to see him
The first thing i enter to his room,
He was ready to give me a big hug
Gonna miss him when he goes army
Love you boy=)
And i hope tonight is good
I am happy
Cause when i took taxi this morning with surcharge
Uncle was nice to give me discount
On top of it,
I satisfied my macdonald breakfast craving=)
What's life without pleasures like that?
Have a good ahead people!

And everyday, i am learning something new,
I am learning to see myself smile at the slightest matter
This is call enjoyment

2009-08-24T21:33:00.002+08:00

Hello World....

And i realised i have been on the web for at least 5 hours
I really felt i wasted that 5 hours
when i can do something more productive
Where i could have done up a proper resume for my next job,
Where i could have printed out more of my photos
The best part is baby is outside singing karaoke,
What is this world becoming to man?
Oh well
I shall stop ranting
But i had a happy lunch with cindy after work
Sometimes,
Its people like her that make me happy at the end of the day
This world is so funny la
People you want to spend time with doesnt seem to want to spend time on you,
People you hope to work with always dont seem to be the one you work with
You may miss a person but that person doesnt really necessary miss you
Times flies when you least expect
The people that make your day are the least you expect
OMG
Why am i so negective?
I really need another holiday
I really feel like running away from this stupid place.
Can i just run away to a place no one knows?
Argh..
I'm leading such a meaningless life...
Langkawi, you are the next destination=)
Any takers?

To love is not to possess,
To love is to care....

2009-08-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

Peaceness

And i am finally back to this space
Its been days since i last returned here
Due to work,
Due to tiredness.
Due to laziness
Due to whatever reasons other normal people will give
Life has been much stable recently
Its like no news means good news to me
Work has been peaceful
But still many people still get on my nerves,
Shall not touch on that
Had a great time with baby that day,
He's going army soon
Its a good and bad thing
Bad thing is that i'm gonna be separated from him
Good thing is he will grow to be a man
Most importantly for me,
I would very much want to see growth
Of cause not bad growth,
But good growth
Maturity in him
I always believe distance will lead this relationship to longer roads ahead
It is a test for us to see if i can stand any temptation that come my way
And most importantly,
If time changes anything
Cause i always believe that time can change everything in a span of an eye
I do have confidence in us,
But i am still a careful person,
Who believes that nothing is gurantee for life
that is how skeptical i am=)
Oh well
I still love you botak boy!
Thanks for thinking of me this morning=)
I wish it can happen more often
Cause if you do not know,
You are like my coffee before work
You give me the drive and alertness to work even with people i dont like
Thanks baby..
btw guys,
I have a friend who has a bag blogshop,
Please support her
Her webiste is www.lovelytinkles.blogspot.com
pls message me @92470702 if you want to place any order
As I am her customer who she doesnt charge postage fee
And personally deliver to my house doorstep
Please take a look ya=)
Miss you guys so muchos

Life is what you make out to be,
And I only want the best..
And the best is to be happy..

2009-08-15T00:20:00.002+08:00

And If Things Are Meant To Be...

And today was sort of a shitty day..
I made a mistake at work
And seemed like the whole world knows more details than me
This is one thing i hate about the people and the job,
I mean c'mon la..
No one is perfect la..
Who says that AFOM have never make mistakes before huh?
The funny thing is i used to be so worried when i made mistakes in the past..
But now i feel that i dont care anymore..
But i'm glad Kelvin helped me in the end
I feel like a ship in the middle of the sea
A ship that is sailing no where
Dont know which direction to head,
Which shore to reach,
Dont ask me why..
I guess we do feel like this sometimes,
Dont you agree?
But though work was shitty,
But i feel a lil happy as well..
I feel happy that Alice is getting married,
I didnt really felt it until she gave out the wedding cards,
I feel happy for her and Jack,
To me,
I used to be scared of weddings and marriage,
But now i find it amazing
Like what it takes to make it last?
Its like seeing them grow
From colleagues to lover and lastly to husband and wife
I love this feeling
This is what i call happy ending=)
I really hope i will have this ending as well with the man i love,
we will go through life together learning,
I may sound childish
But this is my expectation of life,
I'm not interested in being rich,being a manager
I think the best part of life is being loved and to love=)
I am happy for you=)

And baby, I wonder when will this day come for us?
Cause we dont know what lies in the future.
All i know is whats meant to be,is meant to be=)

2009-08-11T14:32:00.002+08:00

Only You Know How To Touch Me...

The storm is over
And we will ride any storms together
At the end,
I always believe there is a rainbow
It does not matter if there's storms
Cause it help to make us grow
Bad things does not always necessary be bad
There is always a reason behind it

And i know i love you more,
Cause no other boy will buy fried fishballs,my favourite seaweed chicken and lychee tea
This is far beyond love,
We all make mistakes,

2009-08-09T12:50:00.002+08:00

I Will Never Understand...

I will never understand why you changed,
I will never understand why i have changed
I will never understand why people change
I will never understand why i am wasting time over something that i thought was worth
I will never understand why you dont seem to find me important
I will never seem to understand why you dont seem to spend time with me
Its just one day
One day has 24 hours,
I take leave for just that 24 hours,
I could have just spend that 24 hours with someone else,
Someone who made me happier
But now i come to realise that i have been wasting my time
Cause it has come to naught
I dont wanna talk to you anymore,
To you,
It may seem like a small thing,
But to me,
It is a big thing
You have proved that I am just someone that is a nobody
And i cannot believe you raised your voice at me
Cause not even my parents or friends do that to me
I guess you dont know what is resepect
You dont know what i need,
You dont know what i want,
You made me believe in magic,
You made me believe in miracles,
But now you shattered all these
I wont forgive you...
I thought you are everything i wanted,
The life we wanted to built together
But now i know this is not what i want
I want the old me back
I want my freedom
I want someone else to love me
To spend the time i need,
To even send me home safely
Its not about words,
Its about actions
What does it take to make you realise all this?
I will survive even without you

Simple things like this is so hard for you to do,
Then i see no point in continuing on,
Cause i can do all this by myself too=)

2009-08-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

And What Makes It Last?

And sad to say,
I have been feeling very lousy the past few days
Be it at work,
Be it at home
Be it towards colleagues,
Be it towards my family,
Be it towards baby..
I really feel tired to go on...
Tired to give my best
Tired to think,
Tired to feel tired
Tired to find hope,
Tired to find meaning
Tired to find reasons why i feel this way
My heart is confused
There's so many things that i wish i could just decide and give it a shot
But i dont have the courage
I'm a coward
I dont know why i am depressed
It could be my hormones,
It could be menses
It could be my heart
I do not know
All i know is i need a break
I wanna go to a place where no one can find me
A place where i can relax and not think about anything
Can i go alone?
Just by myself?
Oh well,
I have been alone for these while anyway..
What difference does it make?
Everyone has someone important in their life,
But i realise i'm not one of them
No one can give me the full attention i need,
The time i need
The love i deserve
I just wonder why is this world always so busy
Why nobody bother to just tell me that i am important?
Because i feel so small
Really really small...
I wish someone can just give me a hug right now
But nobody knows how i feel
They just thhink i'm a happy go lucky girl
But has anyone ever ask me am i really happy?
I feel my world falling apart
I just need someone to be there for me
Is this so hard?
You tell me,
What is the point?
No meaning seh

What i am saying here may sound childish,
But these are from my heart...

2009-08-06T11:56:00.002+08:00

Dread....

And work is in 3 hours time,
I dread working
Dread the environment,
dread the people
Cause i'm not working with someone
Someone who makes me feel safe knowing that i can turn to when i need help
And someone who supports me
Oh gosh,
Its just a 8 hours job
But why do i feel like this 8 hours is going to be hell?
Omg,
I need motivational courses
Baby,
Happy 2 years and 2 months
I love you

Its just a stupid job....
Why am i hanging on to something that have no ending?
Something that no one appreciates you for?
I hate leading this kind of meaningless life

2009-08-02T21:12:00.002+08:00

I'll Be There....

And i finally have the time to blog
Work has been so so hectic
With the Osim Triatalton, S'pore Dance Sports,Thanral Wedding and Squash Teams
Queues has been super long,
Complaints of cause increase
Paperwork and reg cards pilling like nobody's business,
And i go home late late
But i still adore this job of mine
Cause i love to see the smiles of my guest faces
This is something not everyone can achieve
And i will do my best in this job until i quit
and when i quit,
there's no turning back
And then i wanna be a wedding planner
I wanna arrange nice weddings for my customers
And make sure they have the best wedding on earth
And later proceed to be Mrs Phua
Staying at home to serve him and his kids
And so ,
I got my life all figured out
I dont need to be a GSO
I dont need to be a Supervisior
I dont need to be the apple of everyone else's life
I dont need to curry favour the big bosses
I just need to do my best
I miss my friends
My secondary school friends
The people whom see me grow and grow
And of cause cry and cry
And later to see me falling in love
I suddenly miss Heartland mall,
Miss those thai express sessions,
I miss the Dias family
And i miss daddy
Oh well,
I'm still happy
Baby called me just now
He's asking me what shampoo to buy
So lame
But i told him say "next time,i wanna be in charge of buying your shampoo"
And he said"of cause"
He's so sweet
I seriously pray that tomorrow will be a good day at work
Think positively Cassandra Dias!!!
Jia you

I wanna be with you...

2009-07-28T23:15:00.002+08:00

I Stay In Love With You...

Hello everyone,
And i think i'm falling sick very soon
Lack of ample rest and sleep,
Stress at working,
Complaining and nagging about my daily routine,
And crazy guests driving me up the walls,
I dont see why i wont fall sick
And i have really been very tired
perhaps due to bad menses
Heavy flow and moodswings..
But thank god,
I'm afternoon shift tmr
Btw guys,
I have change my hp no to #92470702
I feel sad to change my number because i'm used to the old ones
But who love saying goodbyes?
My head is feeling heavy.
Pay day is today,
Straight away went to buy some necessities after wotk
And baby came over
He bought me chocolate again
I'm happy=)
Cause he treated me pizza last sunday too
And he said we are gonna have our yearly picnic soon
Baby,its a promise ya?
No backing out last minute
Anyway
I think i need to head to bed now
Good night world!!
Hate it or love it,
All you gotta do is pray that tmr will be a better day ahead!!

My faith and beliefs are what i'm holding on now...

2009-07-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

And I Know....

And i know that you love me more than anything...
I love my new lG pink touch screen phone
And my new canon printer=)

2009-07-15T00:59:00.002+08:00

The Simple Life....

And i'm back from work
I really had a great day today
Not problems, no fiction
Sy Jye is really a great supervisior
And i'm glad i had Ida, Karen
This is the 1st time i feel that working is really worth my time
I could feel we are a team
And this is what i call team spirit
No laziness, no blaming,no pushing,
I guess you just need the right people to make a great day
And all i can say is i really had a great day
This is the 1st time after my 1 year 3 months
Thank you Sy Jye,Ida and Karen
Really feel happy
Like what Sy Jye say,
Its the simplest thing that can make a person happy
And i truely agree..
Sometimes,
When i find no meaning in my job or in my life,
I always remember God,baby,my family and friends
They are the ones supporting me always
So it doesnt matter if my life at work sucks or whatever
Cause i know they are behind me
I feel happy
Thank you Sy Jye for making me happy!!
Hehe
Anyway,
Baby told me that her cousin has broken up with her boyfriend
I guess this only goes to show that we should not take people for granted
Thats why baby and i never encourage break up whenever we argue
We compromise,search for solutions and love each other more
I guess love is that simple
Baby dont you agree?
Its so simple like you giving me your prawns when there wasnt any for my laksa
And the only reason was you loved me
And you knew how much i love laksa
I just wanna thank you for that
Its simple things like that we take for granted
But its things like that,
that made me smile
I guess if we really love a person,
We should learn to let go
But that is something not everyone can
I feel life is like a kite
I love it
We must learn when to let go and when to hold tight
I know my post is getting boring
But i just feel that everyone has a chance to fight for their happiness
And i think i have grown so much
I'm proud of myself

Its the simpliest things that can make you happy...
Life is too short...

2009-07-12T15:24:00.002+08:00

Doing What I Deem Fit

Didnt really had the time to blog
But now that i should be sleeping,
I using this time to blog
Night shift with Sy Jye was terrific
It was a peaceful night
And nevertheless,
We are a great team at work
He was complaining to my about his sore throat
And so i accompanied him to the doctor after work
And then we head home and ate breakfast together..
We were actually so tired,
But when gossiping about the hotel,
We started getting energetic
We chatted until we forgot the time..
And didnt know my mum and baby was looking for me
I really enjoyed our gossip sessions
Was supposed to work with him last night
But he took mc
Its alright anyway,
We have many other chances...
Work last night was alrite except for Silkair flight delays
But however,
I managed to finish my bucket check
I still hold on to my belief,
I believe working with my favourite people bring out the best in me
Anyway,
1 more night to go
Jia you sandra
I had nothing to do last night
And suddenly decided to read chen chian blog
And to my suprise,
I realised she talk about me
She copy and past my post
She said she envy me for having such a great boyfriend
All i can say sustaining a relationship is not simple
It takes alot of tolerance
And i always believe the best way to maintain is to give each other sufficient space
This is something girls can never do it
But i managed to
Cause in the long run,
This is gonna help
Sometimes,
I do wish boyfriend can spend more time with me,,
But i realised even if he do so,
I'm the one who dont have the time to spend with him
But nevertheless,
We still love each other
I guess i learnt alot from baby
So an advice to all my girlfriends,
Please leave some space for your man
Let them know that you are independent with your own life
And then they will feel the need to protect you=)
This is hard work
But you will get me in the future,
This is a strategy for me
But anyway,,,
I really pray hard that today will be a good day
Cannot wait to see darling tmr
Baby,just to let you know,
Popo will be cooking laksa
So please come tmr
No flight delay for once please?

Just call my name and i'll be there,
I'll be there to comfort you
And build my dreams around you
I'm so glad that i found you

2009-07-10T18:17:00.002+08:00

I Gotta Feeling....

And hello everyone,
Its 5 more hours to work
And i'm so excited
Cause i'm working night with Mr Wong Sy Jye..
Its gonna be a great night
Cause i know he will help me get thru whatever obstacles i have at work
We will have a great day at work tonight ok?
Oh ya..
Baby came over just now..
Came over for lunch,
And accompany me to sleep
I just love waking up beside him
I hope to live this way forever with him
Though he didnt stay long,
But i do appreciate the thought for coming over
Thank you baby
And dont jealous that i will be going work with Sy Jye later ok?
Hehee
You are more important than him
Anyway,
I was happy ytd
Cause i received a letter from Mr Lane about my service
Its about Mr Iyer complimenting me
I guess my hardwork finally paid off
And i decided to continue not giving up
With people like baby,alice,sy jye and others supporting me,
I will work hard
Thank you
But i really pray hard that there's no flight delay tonight
I hope it will be a peaceful night
Jia you sandra
Jia you jia you

I gotta feeling that tonight will be a great night!!!

2009-07-08T10:45:00.002+08:00

My Beliefs..

Back from thailand
Shopping is ichiban there man
Almost shopped till i dropped
I'm bought so many stuff
Bikini,shoe,slippers,bags,dress,tops.jumper....
I'm so happy man
But the air there is really polluted
I still love the slow paced life there
Not so stressful
Overall,
I enjoyed my holiday=)
I returned to work ytd..
But i'm glad it was a good day
And i pray hard for no flight delays today
I miss baby
So happy
We will be meeting twice this week
I love this boy
Thanks for the ferrero roche
Muacks...

2009-07-02T12:43:00.002+08:00

What Worth The Price Is Worth The Fight...

And i'm finally back
work has been so super busy the few days
Many flight delays
But thank god that i could find rooms to check in
If not i die badly infront of my guests
I love the expression on their faces when i tell them that i have given them a lousy room,
but given them welcome drinks by the poolside
They are always so happy with this free service
And when they are happy i am happy
Anyway,
Flying off to Bangkok today,
Cannot wait..
Its my 1st holiday with mummy after so long
Hope no flight delay
Hehe...
Miss you...

2009-06-25T01:17:00.002+08:00

Stuck With You....

And finally my internet works,
Cause it has been down for days
Weather has been no good the past few days
Everyone has been falling sick
Better drink lots water and take care ya?
Work has been challenging these past few days
As we have the Asian Youth Games grp staying in
Its hard finding a room for other guests
And there's gonna be no supervisior tmr
Naf's sick man
I wonder how man
I think i will just die infront of those guests
Having high occupancy is killing me
But thank god,
I finished my work early today
I realised i have been thinking about something i shouldnt be thinking
But i cannot control it
are humans meant to be greedy?
Why do they have something good and they still want more?
Oh well,
No one will understand
And i wont tell anyone
Anyway,
I'm sleepy yet hungry
I miss baby
Yes,
I decided to fight for my own happiness
What about you?

Sometimes, i worry too much
Sometimes, i think too much
Sometimes, i hesitate too much
But the truth is,
What are we waiting for?

2009-06-20T18:26:00.002+08:00

If Today Was Your Last Day....

And i just put down the phone with baby
I think i'm lucky to have a boy like baby
He puts up with my nonsense
He was telling me that his cousin told him to buy me chocolate when menses is here
Cause chocolate makes a person with menses feel better
And he says he's gonna buy me chocolate when i'm having menses
He knows that my attitude sucks when i have menses
Hehe,
He's such a sweet boy
He's going NS in september
And he asked me to send him off
And of cause i will do so
Baby says i'm the best girlfriend,
But i don't know the reason for this
I feel there's other better girls
He was so sweet,
He knew i was on night shift
He msged me at 5.30am just to give me an encourage msg
Night shift was good
Didnt had time to yawn or feel tired
Time flew so fast
I'm on night again
Hopefully no flight delay
I miss you baby boy
I will see you on monday ya?
Muacks...
Do have an enjoyable day ahead!

If today was your last day,and tmr was too late,
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

2009-06-19T11:06:00.002+08:00

Be With You...

And i finally have time to blog
Life has been busy ever since i returned to front desk
Its so tiring
The number of arrivals is increasing even though economy is bad
Why must business be so good
Anyway,
I already told mummy to write my resignation letter
I will put it in my tray and then hand in when i cannot take it
Knocking off at 1am isnt something funny ok?
Its tiring when you know you should be in bed at that time
And there is no OT given
You feel like a fool finishing your damn paperwork
Anyway,
I'm waiting for a better job
anyway,
I'm on night shift after so many damn months
I hope i won't fall asleep
Hehe
I really miss secondary school
but i shouldnt be complaining
Cause i choose this route
Enough of work matters
Met up with mojojojo
We ate fish and co at parkway
It was heavenly man
Then we ate andersen ice cream
Was another awesome thing
And then darling came over ytd
He was suppose to bring me out for pizzahut
But since popo have already cooked
I told him to come over for makan
So happy to see him once again
I realise when i'm with him,
We dont really speak much
But we always sleep alot
He's such a cute boy
Hehe
But now i'm really craving for pizzahut
Save me man
I wanna have pizza so badly
Anyone,
please ask me out for a pizza date
Please do have a good day ahead people!!

I want to breakfree

2009-06-08T09:49:00.002+08:00

I Don't Know Why I'm So Into You

Morning everyone...
Just a quick update..
Life has really been hectic
Work was akward
Continuing my story with the drunkard guest
The dude is called Mr Chris Wyatt ok...
Yes,
He does look like justin timberlake
And he's cute
But....
I do think he's awkard
So after the next night,
He came in for cocktail again
And i felt maybe he was ashamed of the night before where he got drunk
He kept looking at me and Alice whereever we go...
And suddenly
As i was in charging of washing that night
He came in the pantry
And handed me a letter
I was so shocked
I ask him one more time"Sir, you sure the letter's for me?"
He replied"yes, you cassandra!"
Ok..
I quickly went to Alice
And told her about it
She read the letter and kept laugh
At first,
I thought it was a letter to apologise for his rude behaviour
As i did not mention,
That he kissed me and smacked my backside when he was drunk
Suddenly
The letter when like..
"Sorry, I missed you last night..
Do you knock off at 11pm tonight?
I am in room #1731
It will be awsome if you could come help me celebrate my birthday"
I told you i was so embarrassed that i didnt want to serve him
But he kept coming to me in the pantry to ask me for more drinks
But luckily,
I turned him down for the celebration
If not,
I kana rape also don't know...
Hehe...
Anyway,
Thank God,
He checked out last morning already
Cocktail was busy last night
We ran out of plates and food
But luckily
We managed to survive
And back to work matters
Today will be my day back to front desk
I seriously hope i can get used to the fast paced situations
Omg
I'm so scared...
But hopefully,
I can do it!!
And i bought darling a webcam
So we can see other online now
Heehee...
So happy

I don't know about tmr,
I'll just live by day by day....

2009-06-06T09:09:00.002+08:00

Happy Happy....

Happy 2nd year baby!!
Firstly,
I would like to thank you for entering into my life,
For bringing so much joy to me,
For caring when i was sick,sad or lonely
Thank you for the love and support thru out the 2 wonderful years
Despite the differences we have,
We never failure to resolve it
But our love is much stronger than anyone else
Though we are a couple that meets once a week only
But i always believe that this relationship will last longer that anyone i know
I thank you for changing me to a better person
Like teaching me how to save money
And of cause not saving vugluarities
I'm gonna miss you when you go NS in September baby
I dont know the future
But right now I just wanna treasure whatever time we have
Thank you for the purple roses
You are right,
I'm so touched by it
Thank you for being romantic when i needed you to be
There are so many other things i wanna thank you for
For as long as i'm alive,
I will love you with all of my heart
I LOVE YOU BABY!!!
Ok...
Work was crazy last night
One of the guest got drunk
1st,
He commented on my service
And taught me how to improve it,
Then he started talking about everyone reason to coming to the lounge is to get laid
He hoped that we have some hookers there
And he said our gray uniform cannot make his penis stand
Who does he think we are?
A prositude?
A hooker?
You think we are some low class shit like Paramount hotel?
Then why dont he just go there
All the hookers are there
We are a high class executive lounge for business people and family
Please dont insult us
Just dont understand why wanna drink when you know you gonna embarrass yourself
But thank God your friend came in time to pick you up
If not Alice and I couldnt finish our work
Btw,
I will be heading back to reception next week
I think i will die there....
I think i'm bored of this hotel
Can i just quit?
But i dont wanna just give up so easily
What am i supposed to do?
I wanna work in a resort not a hotel
Oh well...
I wish i could be a housewife=)
Hints Hints baby...
Everyone, please have a great day ahead!!!

Never thought i will fall in love love love,
It grew from a simple crush crush crush
Cause i can't sleep till then you are next to me
Its like insomnia....

2009-06-05T10:50:00.002+08:00

You Are The Best.........

And i'm super duper happy
I just received a bouquet of flowers from a man
I knew it was from baby
Cause he ask me to keep the morning free
So now i know your secret baby
i love the purple roses
I didnt know you are so romantic
it must be so expensive darling,
But now i know how much you love me
Happy 2 years anniversary in advance
This is the 1st time receiving flowers from you
I'm so touched
Thank you baby
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

2009-06-04T12:49:00.002+08:00

Love With No Regrets........

Afternoon everyone,
My mood has returned to my normal self
Maybe cause darling's coming over today
Life has been hectic the past few days
Especially at work
I was so moody at work
Still comptempleting whether i should quit
I really had enough of the stucked up people there
But of cause,
there are also nice people there....
Went to s'pore flyer with Alice, Jack and Sy Jye
we had seoul garden and then s'pore flyer
I couldnt stand this alice and jack
So PDA
I and Sy Jye was like so alone
But we really had a great time
Thank you hotel for the free flyer ticket!!
Followed by...
Grandma's 70th birthday at Roland restuarant
darling came as well,
And i was surprised that he wanted to come
Cause he doesnt like gathering usually
But i'm happy he came
It was nice to see the Dias again..
We had so much fun there..
And then,
Josephine and I went to town
Hoping to buy some dress from forever 21
but its no longer there
She brought me to lucky plaza for some delicious Philippine dessert
Its call "Halo Halo"
Means mix mix
It was like chendol
But this was much delicious
And then today,
Darling will be coming over to celebrate our 2 years in advance
I dont know what he have up to his sleeves
He's been acting sneaky
Like asking me to keep tmr morning free
Yet not letting me know what we are gonna do
He says its a surprise
So i shall see what he's up to..
Oh ya,
Met up with Jessie ytd
She fetch me from her house to serangoon gardens
Her driving skills is really good
we had stingray and my coconut drink
And then proceed to have thai express
I didnt know they had a thai express there for 2 years?
I didnt realise it
This only goes to show how long i have not been there
And later on,
We went prawning
It was so funny,
We were so afraid of the prawn's pincers
So we used a bucket to hold on to it
Cause it can pierce thru your skin if not careful
But it was fun
We caught 9 prawns within the 3 hours
I will organise the next gathering there ya people?
Anyway,
Popo's cooking nasi lemak today
So hungry...
And i'm happy=)

I don't know why i'm so into you
And no one knows the things we been thru
And i dont care what they say,
I wanna be with you

2009-05-27T14:21:00.002+08:00

What is life??

Afternoon people..
Today is my off day
And i kinda feel pathetic
Sometimes i feel like a bull
When it comes to shopping,
I'm all crazy
But deep inside i feel lonely
I hate the way i act like i know everything
I hate the way i have to act positive infront of everyone i know
I hate the way how i show everyone what a wonderful life i am leading
But i really feel sick of my life
I don't like to study and sometimes i hate my job...
I hate staying at home on my off days
And sometimes i hate the way i am
So what if i have money?
But i really feel lonely
So what if i have a boyfriend?
In fact,
I dont feel like i'm in a relationship
So what i have friends?
They are all busy with their own lives they are leading
I'm not blaming anyone
But i feel like i'm leading a very meaningless job
And so what i have a blardee job?
The people there are all tactless and selfish
I don't know what the world is becoming to..
And one more thing,
So what i have a family?
When i'm home,
They are out working or schooling..
And when i'm back,
They are all sleeping
Is our life supposed to be like that?
I wish when i come home,
I could look forward to something
But there's nothing
Life is just a stupid dailly routine
I'm feeling damn pathetic and emo
Perhaps menses is on the way,
Perhaps I'm thinking too much
But i think the world is damn depressing for me
Can anyone understand how i feel
I guess no one
Cause no one even cares
I guess positive and positve energy made me negative
Why am i always complaining
I really wish there's someone who can give me a hug right now
But sadly,
No one knows how sad i am
Not even baby
Oh well.
Just let me cry alone=)

I wish I wish I wish I wish
This world will stop spinning
Because this world is going round and round
And i dont wanna lead my life going round and round...

2009-05-23T00:16:00.002+08:00

Time Is Slipping Away

And i'm in the hall all alone in the middle of the night blogging
I feel the urge to blog
And when i do,
I tell myself to blog
And post will be long
Anyway,
Work was alright
Gm came last night
And i felt so scared
He looked so fierce
But who cares
I'm working with Alice tmr
And i cannot wait
hehe
Time has been flying like nobody's business
I seriously feel it
My girlfriends are asking me when is our next class gathering
And xiu wen has been reminding me how we used to drink coffee 3 years ago
Yeah yeah
I remember those fun we had at my old house
Time flies but no doubt we still have to move on with life
Its the same like me having to go down to reception after being in the lounge for 8 months
I guess i won't have to repeat myself
But i'm just fascinated about how fast i can grow
ARGH!!
But there's nothing i can do
Oh well
I just wanna concentrate on my career
I miss Mr Phua...
He's asleep after playing his new favourite game which is badminton
He's such a cute thing
I cannot wait for grandma's birthday dinner
But i'm sad that godma won't be coming
Its been so long since i last met the full Dias people
I miss their noise
Oh well,
But i'm still happy no matter what
GSS is coming!!
Yeah..
Yes baby,
I will curb my spending
But you better curb your badminton sessions to spend more time with me
Hehe
I'm beginning to miss my secondary school days
But who knows that the days ahead might be the best days of my life?
Who knows?

if you leave me now...
You will take away the biggest part of me.....

2009-05-19T23:43:00.002+08:00

You spin my head right round....

Work was good today
Except that housekeeping took quite a while to follow up on my vip 2 room
So fed up
And the room service was gonna charge me twice for the swop of amenties
slap them ah
Anyway,
Baby came over today
I felt happy to see him
He came over and hugged to watch tv
But i fell asleep again
He's so sweet nowadays
And i cannot wait for our anniversary
I really wanna end up together with him till the end of my life
Thank you baby for giving me the power to live on=)
I'm starting to miss you even though you just left....
Oh well...
Thank God i'm on afternoon shift tmr
I need my pay man
I need to shop!!
A leopard never changes its spots....

You are the meaning in my life,
you are the inspiration....

2009-05-18T00:57:00.002+08:00

Stronger......

And work today was good

felt happy working with Alice

But the only problem is time flies when we work

Cause we will chat until 11pm
Oh well...
The thought of me having to go back down to reception makes me sad
But since i have to go down,
I will do my best and show those assholes that i can do well
I wanna be proud of myself
Darling's upset with his best friend..
He's just disappointed
I mean at least he have a best friend
I realise i don't have any best friend anymore
I eat alone,shop alone,hang out alone
Pathetiic as it sounds,
But i enjoy my own company though=)
It gives me time to think
And i miss baby so much...
He's so cute
I feel bad for neglecting him and being selfish
I will do my best to be the best girlfriend in his heart
Our 2 years anniversary is coming,
And i suggested a picnic
I better pray hard that it won't rain
Cause i just wanna lie beside you in the hot sun admiring the sea and waves
I hope you are feeling better now baby=)
Anymore i'm off tmr
guess i will be staying at home..
I love to stay at home
GSS is coming baby
Just wanna shop till i drop
Cotton On, Forever21, Fox and Mango....
Please wait for Cassandra Dias
Thats why i love working
Working gives me the ability to shop=)
Haha
Anyway,
Thats all for now=)

Nothing is fair in this world i know,
But certain things if they are meant to be, they are meant to be
If certain things are meant to happen,it will eventually happen
All i know is I will still have to stay happy=)